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Monday, July 29, 2013

Today marks a new beginning.

Nobody know what's coming from the future, but we know we can make the best out of it.
We both been through different kind of experience, we been through the hard times, been through the difficulties times, we are said to be on the same bed.
But with each other, we can support one another , be there for one another and make each other life counts. I'm so blessed to have known you.

Coming together is a beginning
Keeping together is a progress
Working together is a success

Today marks a journey, JonYvonne.
I love you

Jon

Wednesday, July 24, 2013

Love is in the Air

Went to find my dear princess today after her swimming session.

The weather was really killin man, sweating inside like...

After meeting her, we went to IMM. Been long since I been there. KEKE..

Walked around and princess brought me eat roti MAMA, treat me sia.. Like the papa bread, coffee bun. Love the fluffy and softness. Then walked around and headed to Giant to figure out what shampoo princess using, it's essential yellow color one, the one that I wanted to avoid was the right one.

After guessing the shampoo, we headed to DAISO to see see look look, my god, DAISO really sell everything..

Then after DAISO, heading to Burger King because princess wanna 'drive thru' the toilet then something happened. Sorry.

Then we headed to Burger King and ordered ice cream and fries. KEKE. As princess did her work, she ask me to download a game called 2Fuse and she end up getting distracted and neglect me.. :(

Around 6:15, needed to head to Boon Lay market area, princess giving tuition there.

Before going for tuition, headed to the market to have nasi lemak and bee hoon, quite rushing though.

After dinner, send the princess to her tuition place and went back.... But I didn't really went back home, I stayed there and waited for her to end giving tuition... Surprise her.

Then took my iPad and watched movie until she ended.

Can't wait to see her reaction lo, pondering whether to appear with a BANG or quietly....

She was pretty shocked and HUH to see my appearance, I'm sooo happy.. That she kept asking me why I keep laughing and smiling to myself...

But princess looking rather tired and exhausted but maybe my appearance gave her a power charge by 10%.

Kekekeke..

Then company her back home and send her home sweet home. (:

To my dearest princess,

Didn't mean to give that angry attitude today in the afternoon and didn't meant to make you cry know, silly girl! Cried in front of the public, you really scare me know.. But lucky i could be there to give you a embrace, now your tears is on my shirt.

Maybe is because of what we are now and where we are, certain things you said could hurt badly and upset me and also vice versa, that's why sometimes is so difficult like what you say, you also feel 矛盾.

So I didn't mean anything mean intention today but I hope you understand.

Sorry baby, and I love you.

Hold me close baby, hang on tight

Buckle up, it's a bumpy ride

We're two kids hitching down the road of life

Our world our fight

Jon

Monday, July 22, 2013

When you love a woman, you make her feel loved and the only woman in your world.

Make the other women envy and green.

When you love a woman

Let her hold you

Till you know how she need to be touched

You've gotta breathe her - really taste her

Till you can feel her in your blood

You got to give her some faith - hold her tight

A little tenderness - you gotta treat her right

She will be there for you, takin care of you

It's a long journey, and gonna be a tough one but rainbows and butterflies are waiting.

Jon

Saturday, July 20, 2013

How small can the world be?

Met princess today for our movie date,

Went to catch Jay Zhou production movie, The-Rooftop.

Met at Jurong East and took 97 and the bus air con was blowing hot air from the start and soon at Harbour front the bus driver couldn't continue the journey as the air con broke down, unlucky.

Like before you set off, you shld have did checks and all what, not efficiency.. Avoidable problem.

So had no choice, alighted and took 65 to orchard instead..

Caught the 7:10pm show at Cineleisure and was in d front second row, lucky it was still comfortable watching it in such close distance.

The show is also similar to High School Musical or Hairspray related kind, comedy love grudge turning it into a musical form. Quite funny though. Not a fan of jay Zhou but recommended movie to catch during the weekends.

Then as the credits was screening, princess wanted to stay a little longer to hear the background soundtrack and there was a crowd at the exit and who knows, on the same threathe, same row, her sister was sitting like 5 seats away from us...

Surprised, shocked plus awkward, but I bet it was even worse for princess.

Lost for words man. HAHA..

After escaping from that awkward situation, went to have late dinner, super late dinner at Popeyes at ION.

Then we did our Vista 198 to her place.

Princess looking very tired on the journey back home after having tuition in d morning and followed by studying session in the early afternoon.

Took a long walk through the park with princess, the night feel so calm that night though. (:

Sent princess all the way to her lift before bidding goodbye.

Princess just couldn't bear to be separated, vice versa.

Donkey misses his princess

-A kiss without a hug is like a flower without fragrance.

Jon

Wednesday, July 17, 2013

First and maybe my last

Accompany dear princess to her dental appointment today to change her braces colours. She been pounding what colour to put.
Waited for her to end lesson before train-ing down to Far East Shopping Centre.
She was a bit late for her appointment.
The process was pretty fast, done in like 10 minutes, didn't have to wait long.. she went for white and blue.
Then her next appointment was 14 Aug, the date I enlisted and i overhead the receptionist telling her the date and when she came back to the seating area, she was like, my next appt is 14 Aug you KNOW!
oh well, it may be my first time and last time companying you to dental, but I'm pretty sure, when you take down the braces, I'll be there for sure.
After that, brought her to 'Japan' to have Hokkaido ice cream. Shared a double cup Green tea and black sesame. Tasted like eating tang yuan. (:
Went to the Taka outside to sit and eat the ice cream then spend 1 hour standing there and looking around before sending her to Holland V where she had a dinner appointment, so busy uhs this princess. kekeke...

Then before we separated, she hold me up and passed me a letter. MYGOD! my first letter from her, I'm awfully shocked and speechless for that one moment. Loveyou.

**can't shared the content

It was a big misunderstanding and no matter what I say can never clear myself but I just have to show you. Sorry princes.

Jon

Monday, July 15, 2013

Life is just so beautiful

The shy princess.

Never had this feeling for awhile, blessed and lucky.
You know if you can be the way you are in front of her, she's the one
Childish like a small child at times and mature like a man at times.
The way she grab my attention when I misbehave,
The way she holds when I'm good boy.
Sometimes I feel like a kid but is all these little things that makes us look beautiful.
Haven't been biting my nails, trying to curb those bad habits of mine,
Always nagging about what's my future and plans,
All these shows you cared.

Waking up to see you first on the notification and before sleeping, you're the last on the notification,

Always first person in my mind when I open my eyes, and last person before I close my eyes,

Making sure you're always happy all the times,

Never failed to pour cold water on me,

Bringing me back to earth.

Indeed you're the pencil and I'm the paper, together we can draw a beautiful piece of life

If you're falling deeply and hard and I'm the cause of the fall, princess, I'm more than willingly to take the responsible and hold you when you fall.

I'll be your laces and you'll be the shoe.

Jon

Sunday, July 14, 2013

Saturday Dates

Been spending my saturday going on a date with princess,

somehow my Saturday feels complete now.

Now I'm left with about 4 Saturdays before I get enlist and I'm going to spend it fruitfully, of course with princess. Kekekeke...

This post is to basically sum up our last few dates...

First Date 29/June/2013

It was more of a study date, company princess as she studied for her exam at Starbucks and I was just watching movie with my iPad, even though she is always disturbing me. After studying for 4 hours and me watching 2 movies on my iPad, we decided to take a break and went to eat, princess stomach grumbling... So we went to Jem, newly opened, never been there before. Look grand as in the shops there are more high ended, like what you see in town areas. Couldn't decide what to eat then princess say bao, so we went Ding Tai Feng. Ordered quite a lot for two though, until princess had to surrender and I had to finish everything.

After eating, went for ice-cream at 31 flavours ice cream parlour. Shared two big scoop and the ice cream was soooo sweet, could feel it lingering on my tongue.

Finish ice cream, princess went back to study and I went back to staring at her.

Soon, time to be home sweet home, send her to the interchange and train back home.

HAPPYBOY.

"Seem to be a start of something new."

Second date 6/July/2013
This was more of a official date, brought princess to watch despicable Me 2 at Marina Square.
Princess had to cab down because she lazy to wait for bus.

The movie was hilarious and extremely funny. Those minions are adorable! Just like me! Keke
After movie, walk around Suntec and Marina before deciding to head to Timbre@The Arts House.
Took a slow stroll over there and the weather was humid, poor princess was feeling warm.
So we quickly settled down at the place, thanks to the big cooler fan, we managed to cool down.
With a river besides us, it was a great atmosphere for a dinner date,

(Even the waitress had to agreed)
Ordered duck pizza, Mary had a little lamb and chicken wings... My god, I feel so bloated after dinner.
Took a slow night walk to Clarke quay then Central where we loiter there for a while, to blow air conditioner, princess is feeling HOT!

good time always pass fast, soon it was time to send princess home. Keke.

Third Date 12/July/2013

First Driving Date

Borrowed the car from godpa and went on a driving date w princess.

Picked the princess from her home at Jurong West.

My first time going to the Jurong area, definitely worried getting lost but I managed to get to her place in one single try, without having to make extra turns or missing a turn. Keke.

Picked that princess up and headed to Jalan Besar for Swee Choon. Definitely not familiar with PIE, making emergency exit, wrong and dangerous move, never again.

Reached there, just nice have parking and though they had long queue outside because of my 'face' we didn't had to wait. Kekeke..

Settled down and quickly took our order, somehow we always over-ordered and always have remains... And always leaving the table feeling bloated... I'm sure to put on weight going out w this princess.

After eating, went for a spin around Bugis to Marina to Keppel and then took a slow drive back to her place. Princess make me circulate around Jurong, even knowing her way back and I was driving in circles for at least 15minutes before reaching her car park.

Parked the car and see her to the lift, gave her a unexpected hug before we bid goodbye.

Looking forward to the next driving date princess <3

*you still owe me one uhs!

Fourth Date 13/July/2013

Barely seperated from each other for less than 12 hours, I'm meeting my princess again. We are going on a date, Laborador Park.

Met her at Jurong after she finish studying, looking beautiful in her black dress and Tommy bag. Keke.

Took 97 down to Harbour Front to settle our hunger. Couldn't decide what to eat so walked around until we past by this photographer who was holding a flyer and wanted to siam him but he look damn persistent and sincere, so we stopped our feet and listen to what he says..

Introducing us to go Taiwan and he told us he from some bride company but tell us 不是叫你们结婚，你不要怕，你也不要担心。

Then to Siam him, I just say I haven't serve my national service and he point to princess and said :

＂哇！这样她不是要等你两年？＂

Wanted to reply him, ＂我是值得的＂but decided to smile.

So we decided on pasta mania for dinner and couldn't really bite, worrying for my front teeth breaking off again.

After eating, we took a train to Laborador Park and took the long walk into the park but somehow it was my first time there so we didn't know the place well and after 30 mins of walking, we lifted the idea and walked back to the station and trained to Holland Village instead. We went for ice cream, princess idea, went to Haagen Dazs and shared a 3 scoops waffle. Princess today became a lady and feed me wor.. Kekekeke.. Sweetttt!

Then we walked to Holland Vista to take 185 back to princess place.

Bus rides... is also the journey to build relation.

Due to "paparazzi" and high attention, we had to avoid the front and end up walking from the back.

"Life of a celebrity" kekeke..

Jon

Wednesday, July 10, 2013

Paying the price of Other's mistake

Life sometimes is so unfair, Where we have to pay for other people mistake when we aren't even buying it or involved.
Sometimes it just suck, feel like giving them lesson 101.
We try to be the best and yet because of some black sheep, there is always doubts.
It makes one can't promise tomorrow and can't buy back yesterday.
No assurance, nobody would wanna buy this insurance right?
Life sometimes sibei hard ah...

Been watching the 9pm drama on Mio watch it first and I'm like episode 18 le!
Showing how this man kept his past and this woman holding on for so long and end up being kicked aside.
Then when his past is being leaked out, his table got turned and his fame took a plunged.
He felt so frustrated, having to pay the price of his past.
Because he wanted to remain his status as a celebrity, he took away a life to prevent complication.
He said,
"If life has a second chance, he wouldn't let it happen again but too bad there's only one shot.
We can only learn from it and gain experience. "
He doesn't want other people to make the same mistake again, especially people around him. Somehow, this scene did a flashback.

Drama really reflects part and parcels of life.
I'm pretty sure when one watch a drama, he/ she will go, hey, that's scene seems familiar.

Nobody say it was easy
No one ever said it will be this hard
Oh take me back to the start

Jon

Monday, July 08, 2013

Diving too deeply and the pressure is building up,
Go steady and slowly, let the oxygen starts to build in.

Maybe they were right from day one.
Should have heed their advice, It fell on deaf ears.
Now I just put myself in some situation. HAHA. Jon ah Jon...
I thought it was easy maybe sometimes we take things too easy and always looking at things closely rather than looking at the big picture.

A good friend told me,
Is like flying a kite,
sometimes you got to hold it tight so that it doesn't fly away,
sometimes you have to let the string loose so that it can fly freely,
Sometimes is just so difficult... when do I hold it tight, when do I let it loose,
always thought I had it, now I guess I stumbled on it.

Like Ramsey said, "Even the best chef in the world get knock back into their box."

Don't be moody for no reason, because I really don't know what can I do to help you.

At least if you moody for a reason, I might not be able to solve it for you but definitely maybe a listening ear or a consulting ear.

Jon

Sunday, July 07, 2013

This Is Us

Got a million reasons to run and hide
I don't blame you for being scared (for being scared, no)
Bout a novel long, all the pain that he's caused you
Baby I'm fully aware (I'm fully aware)
If I could change the stories ending to me and you
Don't know the meaning of pretending what to do

I could be the one
Give you all my love
Forget what he has done to you
I'm here now
Open up to me
Love will set you free
If ever you believe it
Please believe in me

This is us
This is us
This is us
This is us
This is love
This is love
Let the world know, baby This is us
This is us
This is us
This is us
This is us
This is love
This is love
Let the world know, baby
This is us

I know everything isn't meant to last
Box up all those photographs
You're moving on (yeah)
I could flip back over that hour glass
And refill the better half (the better half)

And it's a miracle how broken hearts can mend
Won't you dry up all those tear drops and start again

I could be the one
Give you all my love
Forget what he has done to you
I'm here now
Open up to me
Love will set you free
If ever you believe it
Please believe in me

This is us
This is us
This is us
This is us
This is love
This is love
Let the world know baby
This is us
This is us
This is us
This is us
This is us
This is love
This is love
Let the world know baby
This is us

If I could show you there's no risk of being left alone
Would you let your past go
I'll take it slow
Cause there's no need to rush when I know

I could be the one
Give you all my love
Forget what he has done to you
I'm here now
Open up to me
Love will set you free
If ever you believe it
Please believe in me

This is us
This is us
This is us
This is us
This is love
This is love
Let the world know baby
This is us
This is us
This is us
This is us
This is us
This is love
This is love
Let the world know baby
This is us

Jon

Thursday, July 04, 2013

Let Her Go

Well you only need the light when it's burning slow
Only miss the sun when it starts to snow
Only know you love her when you let her go
Only know you've been high when you're feeling low
Only hate the road when you're missing home
Only know you love her when you let her go
And you let her go

Staring at the bottom of your glass
Hoping one day you'll make a dream last
But dreams come slow and they go so fast
You see her when you close your eyes
Maybe one day you'll understand why
Everything you touch surely dies

Well you only need the light when it's burning slow
Only miss the sun when it starts to snow
Only know you love her when you let her go
Only know you've been high when you're feeling low
Only hate the road when you're missing home
Only know you love her when you let her go

Staring at the ceiling in the dark
Same old empty feeling in your heart
Cause love comes slow and it goes so fast
Well you see her when you fall asleep
But you never touch and never to keep
Cause you loved her too much and you dive too deep

Jon

Wednesday, July 03, 2013

Further study or NOT?

This afternoon, my mum suddenly asked me whether do I have the intention of studying university. And that strikes me.
For the past 20 years, I never had the thinking of going university at all but suddenly, when you get the diploma cert and at the age of 21 as of 2013, it become a common question between the elderly.

I remember there was a time when I'm working, this old man passed by and he sat down and have a chat with me. And he told me, "Cost of living is so high, don't think of the future, think about now because if you can't get past now, you can't go to the future."

Another time was a cabby driver, everytime he drives past and he will stop his car and come have a short chat with me and his first sentence is always: "You're a hardworking young man, people like you will never starve."

So to assure my mum, I told her,
"Let me finish serving my country for that 2 years and we'll talk about it, because opportunity might pop up."

It's the month of July already, I have slightly more than a month by a bit before enlisting and that's like 6 weeks away.................

Finally, the stone in the heart is taken out.

At least there is direction now.

Jon

Have you ever felt that you're so ready to give your best yet you can't.
Sometimes it feels so warm toward,
sometimes it feels like an ice berg, cold.
Then you can't make a decision whether to go for it, to stay for it.
If you go, you get criticized that you have low determination, don't have the fight.
If you stay, it feels like you're dangling.
If you leave it the way it is, you're not giving a damn cause there wouldn't be any progression.
Sometimes is just headache, every morning you wake up and you don't know what you should do.
You go to sleep having so much thoughts in your head.
Sometimes it give you a little hope and the next moment it gives you despair.
The feeling is so sucky, has to be the first time experiencing this though.
Somewhat how, it's déjà vu. It not totally the same but is similar.

Life sometimes is trying to make a fool out of you,
Making things difficult,
Why can't everything come to a census and have a clear understanding?
It difficult to be honest because the truth hurts,
But to lie is worse.

Maybe is one sided,
Is just my wishful thinking.

0132am, time to hit the sack.
it's hard letting go

Jon

Tuesday, July 02, 2013

Today,
I lost a good companion,
A good friend.

Baby has left us peacefully today after old age and she is 13 years old.
When the first time I met her, i was so afraid of her because she used to be hyper when she is young and she will jump and 'scratch' with her long nails.
How I remember, I always locked her in the kitchen when I'm at my mama place. Then she will barked and barked.
As I got used to her presence, she will always welcome me at the door, excited to see me or anyone that came.
Used to play fetch the ball with her, rolling the tennis ball and she will retrieved it,
Sleeping besides me when I was staying at my mama place during my poly years.
Remembered when godparents go on holiday, i had to make sure she is fed and clean, then i'll scold her when she start peeing and shitting all over the place when her toilet area is 'full'
She will also fear of bathing and mama always have to drag her into the toilet..
'Baby, SIT! , Baby, NO!, Baby, OUT!' All these will never be heard again....

You'll be missed

Jon

Monday, July 01, 2013

To make you feel my love

When the rain Is blowing in your face
And the whole world
Is on your case
I could offer you
A warm embrace
To make you feel my love

When the evening shadows
And the stars appear
And there is no - one there
To dry your tears I could hold you
For a million years
To make you feel my love
I know you
Haven't made
Your mind up yet
But I would never
Do you wrong I've known it
From the moment That we met
No doubt in my mind
Where you belong

I'd go hungry
I'd go black and blue and
I'd go crawling
Down the avenue
There's nothing
That I wouldn't do
To make you feel my love

The storms are raging
On the rolling sea
And on the highway of regret
The winds of change
Are blowing wild and free
You ain't seen nothing Like me
I could make you happy
Make your dreams come true
There's nothing that I wouldn't do
Go to the ends
Of the Earth for you
To make you feel my love,
To make you feel my love

Jon

I'm back again
Been long since I last posted on my blog, it is dying soon.. And someone wants me to revive it so I'm here to revive it together. Past month has been rather busy for me, going for short trips with my two best buddies. Batam and Malaysia. Definitely everyone had a good time for sure. Let I say before, 10 years from now, we cannot forget about each other man, we are going to celebrate each other blessing and happiness. Don't forget, I'll be your kid's godfather okay! Enlisting like soon, So I'm going to make it count because enlisting, everything will change and is the next chapter in life. To be honest, I can't wait for it. A new chapter. Updates.

FOLLOW your heart
Sometimes in life, you got to follow your heart and not your mind. People ask you, how did you managed to do what you did? It all boils down to, '
Are you willingly? Do you want it? Do you want to?'
Is like growing a flower,
First you start by planting the seed, then with constant watering and sunlight, it will slowly bloom into a flower.
You cannot stop watering it and expect it to bloom,
You cannot stop giving sunlight and expect it to grow healthy,
You need a balance of both and slowly it will bloom into a beautiful flower.
From the moment you plant the seed, you lay down a commitment and be committed.
sometimes, it grow a little to give you hope, and then it stops growing. It can be very frustrating.
Just nice, I planted a new seed, after so long...
Somehow I just got this feeling that this is the one, though I know people will say : 'it cliche, everyone will say this when they found their seed'
But mark my words, It's totally different this time.
I'm serious.

And you, really got replacement ah?

I thought we were supposed to be gardener? Water and provide sunlight to the seed.

And, all the best for your papers tmr

YOU CAN DO IT!

I'm all behind you!

Jon