You got to lose to know how to win

Tuesday, August 31, 2010

One Down, One more to go.

Today was C-Math paper , think i busted it but I did my best. Apparently something happened last night, not long ago around 05.40am. Of course I'm not going to blame it on the incident but my mind was totally round and round when I think too hard. FUCK!

I swear I now FINALLY know what's a chill went down my spine. I really froze on the bed, pretending to sleep, not breathing and praying that I can't hear.

The force is pressing me down, breaking cold sweat all over. I think that is one of my worst 45minutes of my life so far.

Jon

Monday, August 30, 2010

Mygodd... study study study.. nothing going in totally. HAHA.. Let's just study and remember what we can. Don't push too hard uhs, save energy. HAHA. Give it the best shot guys! (:
I'm eraser remember >(:

last night.

Singing to our hearts out.

Went Party World with my dearest Roy, his girlfriend Siew Chen and Malcom. We imported in 06 cans of Heineken in and had 4hours to sing.

The atmosphere was great, everyone was sporty. Me and Roy literally losing your voices as we sing almost all the songs that are picked.

I still remember that Nobody Nobody by the WonderGirls with the dance move along. HAHAHA..

Malcom, You must be having a hard time laughing uhs! hahaha..

Roy and Me was like kept rushing to the toilet as we drank and the pee flow was forever.

but it was great man! long time didn't had such fun with Roy or maybe with friends, singing our hearts out, don't care whether out of tune or not correct, we had fun right?

Next time we go sing again! We go HIGH again! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA...

JL in the house,

SC in the house,

JL in the house,

SC in the house.

HAHAHA..

now, is back to the notes. tmr first paper.

all the best guys! (: remember, I'm the eraser(:

Jon

Sunday, August 29, 2010

ohmygoddd..
been coughing last crazy every night! bloody throat feel so itchy whenever I breathe in. *must be too much of singing these few days la, 7th month getai. HAHA.

exam is like 2days away and I'm not done with studying. Can't find the mood to study but I got to push myself to study still. At least abit though not feeling well. So looking forward to after exam, going for my 'gay date' Nelson and Wei Zhi, don't forget hor! (: Gene and Ralf can join us also knoww, I don't mind. HEHE.

This morning, someone told me whether can I be her idol?
she like the way I think and lead my life.
"I think I live my life to the fullest" , not much regrets even if one day something happen, you guys should be happy and not sad over it.
happy because you know such a wonderful friend, giving you as much joy as he can right? (:

I don't want to know. Leve me alone.

Jon

Friday, August 27, 2010

what the fucking hell am I doing?

the 2seconds glance was good enough I suppose. I don't deserve more than that. I think I'm ashamed to see you also.

looking through my history of my blog post, looking through the letters we exchanged, flipping pages of our diary, looking at the hearts you fold for me, 200plus in total with I love you on every heart, the pain, the memories is still there. I know you had a hard time and now,

I somehow can feel the pain you went through and I'm totally sorry baby.

I hope the day will come where we can have dinner together.

Got a million reasons to run and hide
I dont blame you for being scared (for being scared, no)
Bout a novel long, all the pain that hes caused you
Baby Im fully aware (Im fully aware)

If I could change the stories ending to me and you
Dont know the meaning of pretending what to do

I could be the one
Give you all my love
Forget what I(he) has done to you
I'm here now
Open up to me
Love will set you free
If ever you believe it
Please believe in me

This is us
This is us
This is us
This is us
This is love
This is love
Let the world know, baby This is us
This is us
This is us
This is us
This is us
This is love
This is love
This is us

I know everything isn't meant to last
Box up all those photographs
You're moving on (yeah)
I could flip back over that hour glass
And refill the better half (the better half)

And i'ts a miracle how broken hearts can mend
Won't you dry up all those tear drops and start again

If I could show you theres no risk of being left alone
Would you let your past go
I'll take it slow
Cause there's no need to rush when I know

Jon

我们的爱
过了就不再回来

ohmygoddd!

today, I touch my notes for the first time (: and I realise I got many stuffs to put into my big brain full of nonsenses!

I got so many things to study!!! Guess i got to cover at least half of the whole book today and leave the rest for weekends. (: hahaha..
realise got so many things to stuffs sia! i thought veryy easy man but I can do it, no worries. Don't panic la! as long as you don't panic, you win half the battle. (:

Jon

Thursday, August 26, 2010

my new wallet! it's a gift.

hello!

It's THURSDAY! haha.. 5days more to exam and I haven't touch a single thing (:

been rather busy with work the past few days and now, currently free till exam day so hopefully got no last minute call work (:

Yesterday went to watch STEP UP 3, wonderful show,

nice music, dance moves, touching love scene, hot babes!!!! ( Sharni )! and hunks!

the Luke guy look like Beckham plus Farbegas. combination. handsome!

thanks for movie and dinner and also the wallet.

I'm going to start studying tmr, like really study thn sat and sun will also be studying weekends? I hope so. HAHA.

Thank you for loving me
For being my eyes
When I couldn't see
For parting my lips
When I couldn't breathe
Thank you for loving me
Thank you for loving me

Jon

Tuesday, August 24, 2010

was going through my pictures folder and came upon my 2009 National Day family chalet at Elias Road. thn saw until this picture and decided to post about this since I seldom post about my second brother, Jordan Low.

My brother, Jordan Low.

noooo, it not my ex

that day, I was having a talk with my second brother so we were talking about relationship and always is I sharing my relationship with him, so i thought it was time for me to know better of his.

and true enough, I was quite taken aback from what he told me.

from going dutch to coffeeshop, I'm surprised.

wingsze, I think i wronged you in the beginning. let me apologise to you first. look after my brother okayy, my mum kindd of worrying for him cause he abit 'slow' la, you understand right? hahaha.. don't let him kena cheated so easily. who knows, the day when we have dinner together will come soon uhs? HAHA.

Cheers!

Jon

dudes, it's too late I know.

I gonna learn from it and move on.

I know it's my fault, I admit it.

For those who see I'm a happy-go-lucky guy, that's good. for those who see the deeper of me, thank you.

I'm going to share the love now, I going back to my old life before I have any love. if you can play, come play with me (:

to the first:
I wish you all the best in your life as usual, don't think behind

to the second:

I really don't understand what you trying to do, first asking whether we are friends, then later post such stuffs on internet? I'm not going to do anything about it, just do what you want. Stop whining.

guys, I regretted. I'm sorry.

Dad, I didn't live it up to your name.

Mum, It's too late, let's move on.

Jon

Sunday, August 22, 2010

It's sunday morning!

I'll kick off the day with a 3hours work at Causeway Point.

My afternoon is been taken by the girl who misses me so much, Wendy Ooi.

mahjong together with them. thn I'll rest at my Yishun home tonight!(:

stupid Blackpool and Wigan! concede so many goals! hahaha.. but Blackpool were great man, holding poessession till they lost a man. Blackpool, I'll support you in the next game man! (:

alright, What have i been doing these few days? (:

I have been working veryy hard, joking la. Got work these few days at sub-urban area and I got Casueway Point, SHIOK sia! like 7minutes away from my godma house (: thn saturday got no work, went to meet aloy roy siewchen and ruikun. haha.

meet aloy at Admiratly mrt station and we had a early bottle of breezers, thn took bus to Roy place.

mahjong at roy place till 6plus then headed out for dinner together at Yishun 900plus.

seriously long time no meet up with these group of friends, damn funny.

and Roy, I didn't purposely wink at your girlfriend la, so scare... HAHA.

thn after dinner, walk all the way to the prawn-ing at Bottle Tree, wanted to prawn but quite a number of people, so we watched soccer. bastard, had to order a jug of Tiger before we could sit there and watch, so Roy and I shared the jug with Ruikun and aloy drinking a cup each.

after the first half of Arsenal and Blackpool, we kindd of headed home.

Took 965 home and thn train back. hahaha.. TIRED!!

and just before I sleep, I had a sweet goodnight message. HAHA. (:

i'm not going to say anything for now.

Jon

Thursday, August 19, 2010

"You’re a hypocrite! Liar. You’re not true to yourself,since the day you met her. Why do you want to choose her over me? Am i not good enough? We shouldnt have wasted each other time then. 1years 5months, 17months..And it’s end all because of her. So our love is that weak,and she’s so powerful to have snatch you away from me. Told you,you dont believe my words,but you believed hers. It’s obvious from the star"

I'm going to live my life with this paragraph.

to the girl i spend with a wonderful 17months.

i have something to say before i continue my post,

I sincerely expressed my deepest apologises to you, Miss Chong Siew Hui. I know it might be too late , but I today, I believe I own you a apology that if I don't say it , I will live in regret.

You know, everytime when I hear,

I guess this time, you're really leaving,

I heard your suitcase say goodbye,

....

you immediately came to my mind whenever this song is played, I don't know whyy.

This song is only dedicate to you, played for you, for you to listen.

We been through seriously many ups and down, from family, my mum and then friends but we managed to get through 6months or even a year whereby friends don't believe we could lasted that long.

from smses, calls, letters to diaries writting.

still remembered the time you went Hong Kong for holiday and called me, I thought something happened.

still remembered no matter how angry you're with me or how angry I'm with you, you will at least let me know where you're.

still remembered the time during our National Day family chalet at Pasir Ris where we all get together as a family, eating and talking.

still remembered the time when we always go marina square to "Prize Machines" and catch those toys! waste so much of my money! but we always have a toy with us after we call it a day.

still remembered the time when we watched fireworks every year together.

and many more memories.

Our journey if written as a book, I think it will be as thick as a dictionary.

All I got to say to you now is

All the best in life, All the best in your studies, make shenshen happy & proud.

Shld you need any help, feel free to drop me a SMS, I'll be willing to help(:

and today is 19th , it would have been 20.

I was blinded

Jon

Tuesday, August 17, 2010

today i came to knoww something, something which I didn't expected it, I didn't know that it was coming my direction.
this song is always for you, dedicated to you, just only you.
All I can say now is thank you for loving me. for the 17 months.

I'll be there for you,

this five words I swear to you,

when you breathe, I want to be the air for you,

i'll be there for you.

remember these few lines?(:

All the best in your life.
move on, I'm ain't that worthy guy anymore.

I will lead my own life, earn money, do what I want (:

Jon

Sunday, August 15, 2010

Tiredd. this fews days been rather busy with work. can't believe it man!

Some people are so irresponsible when comes to work. You're paid to do a job, do it properly and not 'put aeroplane' lor!
I mean, you are given the best pay in the market right now, the job is so simple somemore. Don't really knoww what these youngesters are thinking man? You want to earn money, give you a simple job with a good pay but you did halfway and run. blacklisted la my friend.

Work has another 1more week to go, thn left with 2weeks to study for examination!!

Tmr Hitachi Tower, feeling so tired! eye closing le.
meeting Aloysius for lunch who is working at Suntec City. dude, think tmr is another slacking day for us, just wait for money to roll in as every minute pass(:

Jon

Saturday, August 14, 2010

~~I'm sorry.~~
~~I'm bury your feelings. I didn't put myself in your shoe.~~
but, isn't it ~~better~~ BEST to go on our own way?

you asked to be friends but what you wrote and all doesn't reflect that you want to be friends. keep the box or throw it away.

Jon

Thursday, August 12, 2010

Class Chalet plus BBQ.
Aloha Loyang
Sea View Terrance 4.

EI1001

EI1001,

short of 3members.

Starting the fire.

Ashley, Jerry , Namera , ME!

waiting for the food arrival.

starting the fire.

the bbq pit.

After getting WHIPPED cream! (: hahaha..

although the cream was bought by me, I didn't got whipped!! hahaha..

the food table.

our chef of the day, Nelson Tay.

more foods! BBQ-ing,

the bbq food.

* i know the hotdogs don't look good . haha.

SATAYS!

CAUGHT YOU!!

slacking ah?

Ain't you suppose to be 'working' LEH?

eating happily.

the laughter,

the fun.

the multi-purpose court/basketball court.

gambling in the night. i mean morning, 'early' morning.

PICTURES of me and friends!

'Korean POP STAR'

me and the Dimaano brothers.

Gene and Ralf.

I'm just a extra in this picture. find me!!

me and Namera

me and the 'Filipino' representative.

or the Pokka Green Tea Promotor.

me and hema

MAN UTD die HARD fan!

Can't stand Rui Jun naggy-ness. hahaha.. make me want to laugh before taking a picture with her.

Nah.. this is better, our class 'beloved' Orientation Group Leader when I first entered NYP.

my gay partner, one of...

a good class 'monitor'

and also my 'SIR'

and also the planner of this chalet.

Me and Weizhi, another key person to the hosting of this chalet. (:

*Nelson!! extra

MY ROOM

Room 4

with Dimaano brothers & Jerry

the cupboard

the QUEEN bed.

the balcony. where we hang our clothes. houseman leh.. anyone interested?

me and the Dimaano brothers on bed.

we slept together for the 2nights. my roommates or should i say sleeping mates(:

we go for PEACE(:

TIREDDD but FUN! VERYY FUN!

3days 2nights, the debut of EI1001 class chalet.

Aloha Loyang. the place was abit old but it was big, veryy big.

Headcount: 19people. + half.

Me, Jerry, Gene & Ralf(The Dimaano brothers) , Nelson(father), Weizhi, Namera(loser), Hema, Ayesah, Ashley, Li Yin, Li Min, Wei shu, Jin Min, Bryan, Benny, Lawerence, Jianting, Cao Ran. half is Rui Jun. HAHA.

1300,

meet Nelson, Weizhi, Dimaano brothers, Jerry, Ayesah and Ashley at Yishun mrt.

Upon arrival of all members, Nelson been the last! , we bus 39 to White Sands and transferred to 354 . Went NTUC at E!hub to get some drinks and also some necessary items.

1500,

arrival at Aloha Loyang reception and Nelson did the checking in administering stuffs.

1530,

we entered the 'beautiful' chalet and start to explore as Nelson was doing a check list count of the household items. we picked our room and together with the Dimaano brothers and Jerry, we pick room 4 on the second storey. with the Queen size bed! and a balcony! (: cool right? we settled down and explored the other rooms to see how 'bad' were the others and it turns out, all the same... hahaha..

Then waited for the arrival of the others and also the catered bbq food.

1800,

food comes and the others start to arrive.

and fire starting starts and Nelson and Weizhi did the cooking, there are like our 'father' for the day, making sure the food are cooked and ready.

2100,

bath and relax on the bed. others were playing cards and drinking, some were chit chatting, some were busy playing UNO but the me and the Dimaano brothers were resting in our comfort zone(: shiok!

11/Aug/2010

0130,

got disturbed by a bunch of people (Nelson & Hema) and wake up to watch movie at the living room, Paranormal Activity somemore..

They don't know is 7th month isn't? hahaha. so no choice, 'pretend' to watch and got a little hungry and all so went to cycle to E!hub to get stuff.

0230,

movie ended and i got back, everyone retreated to their rooms and the Dimaano brothers also retreated. loser came in after sending Hema to bed. she was abit dizzy after drinking but lucky Hema was alright.(worrying sia) hahaha..

0300,

Life experience sharing time with the 3of them in the room. hahaha.. damn funny. and the talk contiune till like....

0600,

so we didn't sleep as you can see cause half the time there was a noisy dude sharing his life and 3attentive listeners(kaypos) , (touched)

and around here, something creepy happened. the Dimaano brothers left the room to prepare cup noodles and left the two of us. so I was sleeping and loser was also sleeping thn loser was having blocked nose kindd.. thn.. suddenly, a cool wind just blew past and I felt that chill went down my spine.

thn there was this heavy breathing *veryy heavy breathing, as though the person was having problem breathing.. so i thought loser was having difficulties to breathe(blocked nose) so, I turn around and ask loser,

" hey! whyy you breathe so loud? "

she said : " not me ah! " and turn to the other side.

thn i realised something is not right and just pretend that it didn't happen and prayed for the Dimaano brothers to come up quickly! that 10min wait was the longest 10min ever man!

thn they came up and I was like relieved and thn during the day, I shared my story with the other guys and double confirm that the heavy breathing wasn't from loser. Now, it give me that creeps but I take it as I was thinking too much and not having enough sleep.

Bryan went back home after having a high night. (:

LUNCH. KFC!!!! thn a early bottle of barcardi. everyone thought i was crazy and drunk and face was damn red! (: but i'm not. It's natural reaction. thn had a little game of basketball, cool right, we had these basketball court( multi purpose court ) just 10steps away from our frontyard. but...

1400,

a heavy downpour cause us to stay indoor for like 3hours... Ashley, Li Min, Cao Ran and Li Yin went back home. and now we were left with 12people. so some were sleeping, Wii-ing and the other were in the 'confession' room. hahaha.. thanks Nelson (:

1730,

ordered by Nelson to prepare the bbq, the fire and all ): now i become the maid. hahaha.. joking la, so I just lend my 'untouchable' hand. so help by clearing the place, getting ready for another BBQ dinner, with first day leftover(:

1800,

start bbq-ing and eating.

soon, night falls and it was

2100,

stupid loser, make me run around till got blisters on my feet!

3more going back, loser, hema & Benny. they are sharing a cab back(:

2230,

finally got rid of the loser and Nelson was, what should we do now with 9 people? 7guys and 2girls.

Exploring anyone? so... we drop by Red house down the road.

2315,

took a slow walk there and looking from the outside, it was pitch black. after having enough of looking, we took a really 'slow' walk and far walk to E!hub to get some food and drinks as we are running out of supply.

12/August/2010

0115,

back at chalet and everyone had a mac meal, digging in and watch a ghost movie and thought it was boring so we went to research on Red house and Jin Min was having goosebump!

0300,

everyone settled down and all 5people came to sleep in our room, by shifting the mattress over and all 9 were in the room and it was PITCH DARK outside, totally. Ralf and Weizhi were the first 2 to knock out as Weizhi down with flu and Ralf, not enough sleep LA!

thn played big2 and blackjack, and won some money!(: hahaha.. damn lucky!

0430,

time for bed. hahaha.

suppose to wake up at 0830 to wash up and packed up for checking out at 0945.

0915,

WAKE UP!! late le! quick quick quick... check this room, and that room. hahaha..

panic as everyone brushing teeth together and packing their stuffs.

then Jin Min and Wei shu shared something creepy..

Jin Min experience the same thing as me, hearing heavy breathing and Wei shu saw 'something' white on the wall above her at 0500. creepy... so now, with two different people experiencing the same thing around the same time, it might be true.

0945,

supervisor came to check if everything was in place and thn we were checked out.

First, thank you Nelson and Weizhi for this wonderful chalet organised.

Second, Thank You Rui Jun for coming and telling a story which is a lie!):

lastly,

guys, I seriously had the best time of my 10Aug afternoon to 12Aug morning of 2010. It's was super wonderful time with all of you, everyone. First time staying under one roof, helping each other out, entertaining each other, talking non-stop(that has to be me for sure...) playing through the night, drinking, eating, getting 'scolded' by Hema , Wii-ing together, watching movie together and the bonding of everyone really make me happy, hearing laughter half the time, espcially from room 4, 'boxing' & running around the house on the second day, HAHA.. and the funny-ness of my dear Ralf.. (SIA!)

Thank You so muchh people, You make me entertained! haha.

Jon

Tuesday, August 10, 2010

eating the day.

drinking the night.

Jon

Monday, August 09, 2010

Happy Birthday Singapore! 45 years old le!
beautiful parade and firework.

Jon

Friday, August 06, 2010

FIFA 10

First Game.

Was 1 down and got up 3-1 leh!(:

Arsenal youngester were so good thn Jordan Peh keep saying, Your players damn rough sia.

Actually is the one controlling good la.

Messi was good!! (:

Best team,

never concede a single goal.
Van Der Sar was good!

biggest win.

Leading 6-0 till 75min then let him score 2 la.

went to Jordan Peh house to play FIFA 10 and these are the result.

No Loss, No Draw, All win. Never concede more than 3goals.(:

Jon

Thursday, August 05, 2010

BUSY!

cramped with work and school stuff!

~~tmr having work at 7am-9am, intantaneous speed survey.~~

then 10am school for revision lecture.

after that to Jordan Peh house for PS3 FIFA10!!

then 6pm back to school for YOG,

then 8.30pm back to work till 12midnight., Instantaneous Speed .

Jon

Wednesday, August 04, 2010

18Years Old!(:

YAY!

It's 18 years old and not the rumoured 21 years old to get license. So i intend to start saving from now on. (:

get the highway code, pass the theory, get the license.

HAPPY!(:

Jon