Did I overlook?

Did I overlook?

-A plaster is used to dress injuries not serious enough to require full medical attention,

I guess this plaster is not enough to heal me.

They said that I overlooked many things in the relationship.
They said I should just stab my heart and change a new heart, the heart is too soft.. soft-hearted.
I was giving too much trust and commitment that I forgot about myself.
Till today, I still cannot understand and get the hang of it. It's like totally, giving 100% everything to you and then end up, all this things happening...
Do you know what's fighting for someone? Do you know what's fighting?
Fighting for something means not fearing whatever happens, being there for the person no matter how people are going to say or judge. That's fighting.
How is it call fighting for the relationship when you don't even have the guts to tell everybody about us especially him( not forgetting trying to come twitter to trigger something, don't know what's his intention), your mum about us even she opposing it... You're not even proud of it.
Don't tell me you fought for us. From what I'm seeing, somehow cannot seem to link fighting for the relationship, fighting for me.
To this day, I felt like I'm being cheated, my feelings, my commitment.
I'm like a replacement once again..
The finger was pointing at me, yet when everything is over, the truth somehow seen some light.. the bitter truth, my wrongdoings were just a cover up.
It wasn't the way I thought, I wasn't the way I look at it, It was the other way round..
The 'secret' slowly reveals itself....Yeah, sometimes I'm contradicting, I agreed but from the way it is, you seem to be on the same line too.
Now I know why you weren't attentive towards me after that 1st month, It wasn't about me, it was you.
I did approach you if you had any problems, you said you were stress with studies and mum issue. So I took the understanding of that and not bother by it, give you the space and time you needed.
Really don't know why it's happening to me again, the same old situation, back to back relationship...
I given too much that I always forget to love myself, giving myself away.
My understanding and forgiveness towards this relationship has been taken for granted.
I have so many question marks about everything now, everything you did and all, what's actually going on, if the feeling faded away 1 month ago, then who was I going out with? Or rather who was I loving?
I had limitations because we couldn't go public, that's the biggest sacrifice in a relationship,
Didn't even post a photo on us, I also didn't make noise,
Post the things that he give you, I also didn't make a fuss out of it.
It just seems like I was the one pulling the strings together after anything happened... Anything happened whether caused by me or you.
We will drift apart when something happened and I was the one pulling the string to each other, giving assurance.
I'm not being sarcastic, I'm not being unreasonable but is just things you shown and given to this relationship somehow really really hurts me deeply, very deeply...

Ask yourself, touch your heart and ask yourself,
Do you agree actually we never have problems/ issues with each other, even there is, we could solve it together and come to a consensus. The real problems actually are coming from outside of us, outside the heart shaped of us, people who shouldn't be involved in the first place.

Do you think I even have the mood to go drinking with girls? Like seriously?
You think I treat my relationship like a game, when it ended, I go drink and celebrate with girls?
The pain and sorrow is enough..
Whatever you are going through, I'm going twice of it, maybe even triple or quadruple of it..

I survived the broken heart that was given to me,

I have battle scars fighting for you,

now, you left me bleeding all night