不完美

不完美

Eclipse of the heart.
Yes, I admit I lied.
But I don't understand you by saying washing your hands off me?
I can do anything I want, it's my life, it's my choice.
Then what am I to you?

Just a day ago we were talking about starting it afresh, and now you tell me the trust is totally gone, breached the whole trust of you, and now I'm outside your trust zone. Then if I'm not inside your trust zone, then may I ask you, What am I now? And if i'm outside your trust zone, then there is no more trust anymore, so how are we going to continue now when there is suspicious in the relationship? When there is no trust coming from either side, is like poking each other w a knife turn by turn to see who bleed it out and die first.

I'm not trying to find excuses now, or pointing to other factors. But I think, issue are coming or surfacing out now is because I'm someone who fixed plane and not commanding, steering a vessel or flying a jet plane. Even before this was out, you had something on me already, and it just accumulate.... Let's be honest... If I'm any of one of those up there, I'm definitely won't have this issue now, or be having this issue.
Because I'm posted to somewhere to learn how to fix a plane and then, there, my personality got question. It's funny... really funny.
I slowly coming to the term of " Rich and the Poor "
There is really a difference, the rich can be forgiven easily, the Poor.... HAHA..
People write off people like me, that's what I'm used to it.
Do something wrong and everything is written off,
Whatever you done in front or build up is all brought down,
given the death sentence.

There's is nothing I can change...
If the trust is gone, then I only can bear all costs/ suck it up, unhealthy and not nice words will be said and I just have to suck it up and prove it..
Trust has to be rebuild..
Just can't believe just one is enough to tear it down, while I withstand so many waves...
Not gonna find any excuses or case studies to fight back, just gonna absorb everything and reflect on my own....
Keeping quiet doesn't means I can't be bothered or not fighting, just letting things calm down a little bit.