JONATHAN LOW

2012-03-02T12:35:00.004+08:00

Status
-The position of an indivual in relation to another or others, especially in regard to social or professional stadnding.
-The state or condition of affairs.

Underlying
-Lying under or beneath something
-Present but not obvious
-Concealed but detectable

realised you deactivated ur fb, I don't know what does it mean but all I know is you're rather sitting on it than standing up for it. Well, I guess, if this is what you can do, I jolly well can only accept.

你说我傻傻在爱上只懂爱自己的人
我说你傻傻在爱他你的眼睛骗不了人
我们都傻傻在为一段没有未来的爱情付出
还在期待会有奇迹出现

不要在说你爱我了，这不是重点。

2012-02-29T23:03:00.002+08:00

Memories

talking under the rain in the car,
running under the rain for shelter,
eating sushi under the void deck,
eating home made cheese cake,
having a cover sung for me,
sharing a 6inches subway,
sharing a cup of Mcflurry,
sharing every meal we had,
all this has become memories, great memories.
the process was harsh and challenging, but I did hang on strong, I kept the flame burning but without fuel, the flame will somehow die out and slowly it will.

to b continued..

2012-02-29T12:08:00.002+08:00

安静

spirit of a warrior,
defends like a soldier,
fighting a war that never will I win.
I did all I could,
the last strength,
the last breath.

2012-02-28T13:33:00.002+08:00

Less than 2 weeks break

Exam ended and yet I only have 2 weeks of break till 5th March before my attachment commerate. No news on where I have been attached to but tmr having a briefing and so by tmr I will know where is my attachment location, then is 3months work life!

What have I'm been doing?
Saturday
Back to the ball on saturday morning. Damn tiring and feeling breathless after each run. The weather was killing me and I got sunburnt.

Sunday
Family Day.
Went to Grandma place in the morning and camped at home the rest on Sunday.

Monday
went to cycle with polymates East Coast Park.
One of them was dressed like she is going to town! Who cycle like that ? HAHAHA.
We didn't went far and met with alot of unforeseen circumstances :P
had a mini collision w Jerry but lucky both escaped with cuts and bruised only, Paisei ah. HA.
and the 4hours of sitting on a bicycle seat was killing my nuts. But it was a nice trip.
Saw with a friend at East Coast Mac, what a small world uhs!

will be back with more updates.
and my skin is peeling from the sunburnt.

2012-02-27T13:44:00.001+08:00

PMS

Pre Monetary Shortage.
time to go back to reality and work work work!

2012-02-23T22:03:00.002+08:00

Surprised with shock to see you there.

If I didn't happened to go home, you make a wasted trip man!

But thanks for coming all the way down.

4hours is about $20/hrs.

Bills charged to you at the end of the month. HAHA..

She say quite high chance.

I'm contented and happy to hear that.

在给自己一个机会？

I'm sorry

2012-02-23T11:52:00.003+08:00

Exam Over
but there is no satisfaction feeling.
no celebration feeling.
nothing.
Is like I just ended another paper..

Let's us not try so hard for each other.
I can see your efforts but you know... this isn't what I want.

I don't know anything at all
And who am I to say you love me
I don't know anything at all
And who am I to say you need me
I don't know anything at all

I don't know anything at all
I don't know anything at all
I don't know anything at all

这些我都做得到，但那个人已经不是我

2012-02-22T15:04:00.004+08:00

The Trip to hospital

went to the hospital this morning, seeing those old paitents lying on the bed,

it was a heartbreaking sight.
That was when I told myself,

I have to find someone who is willingly to walk through thin and thick,

till our hairs grow grey,

till I drop every single hair,

there is still someone there for me always.

It's difficult to find such person as there's no more just you and I.

Tmr last paper, and I haven't start studying yet. HAHA. guess that paper really going to fluke man!

After that paper, two weeks break, I only have two week break! damn!

What left me hanging on there was because I love you but..
Nothing is gonna work out when the approach of both of us are different.

Nothing is gonna work out when both of us ain't standing on the same line.

I'm sorry about last night but maybe it would be better like this, sort everything out.

原来有两个他。
为什么我这么坚持

2012-02-21T18:17:00.004+08:00

First Paper Down

ended my first paper today!

didn't expect it to be that easy or shld I say managable(:

Lucky got do abit of last minute yet effective studying. HAHA.

now time for me to delete it from my "database" and insert my second paper into "database".

Look, finally I aligned by blog properly and re-do the layout. the previous was cannot make it and I did it without anyone help, acutally outsource la.. HAHA.

sleeping at 4am and getting caught in the drizzle in the afternoon is ain't helping me feel better now.

Feeling so nanseous and wanna puke. Hopefully, tonight I can just get to sleep.

Body clock total screwed! HAHA.

Second paper on Thursday and it seem to be very difficult to study after friends emphasizing how hard it is to study and remember. Guess it will be spotting time again and moderation to help.

Time to relax for now and step on the gas tmr ? HAHA.

I saw this on the newspaper,

To be a better man or a better husband, you need to follow this,

三从四得

太太命令要服从

太太逛街要随从

太太做错要盲从

太太化妆要等得

太太生日要记得

太太花钱要舍得

太太打骂要忍得

Translate:

When the wife order, you follow.

When wife goes shopping, you follow.

When wife does the wrong thing, you close your eyes.

Always wait for your wife when she is making up.

Always remember the wife birthday.

Always be happy to let your wife spends.

Always tolerate when your wife rage on you.

So guys, to follow or not ?

Your call. HAHA.

2012-02-20T18:48:00.004+08:00

Things are ain't that simple sometimes

This week is declared EXAM WEEK.
Paper on 21st and 23rd, Tuesday and Thursday.
Then have roughly less than 2weeks holiday before going to attachement.

Been going through the theory of my exam, time to spot question and get the roughly marks to pass otherwise is too hell much to study. HAHA.

Bet everyone is praying on moderation uhs. I like(Y)

2012-02-17T20:30:00.000+08:00

2012-02-16T20:25:00.004+08:00

Tired Exhausted

caught with a bad flu,
nose is like a leaking pipe,
squeezing like once in awhile,
body aching,
feeling very tired easily and just don't feel like doing anything.
waking up to an empty house this whole week, waking at 11am..

been sick now is ain't good man......

been trying very hard to concentrate and study, hopefully some information can stay inside my tiny small brain, bloody theory questions.

Guess everyone also studying like crazy right? haha.. kancheong.

Friday is coming, guess what coming from Roy Co. ? Don't tell me another session know. HAHA.Hopefully get better tmr.

when things happen, some people tend to not to b bother and put too much thoughts to it, thinking that it will pass after some time and get over it.

sick and tired of all this nonsense stuffs.

puppet.

if the puppet makes you smile?

2012-02-14T17:35:00.002+08:00

V Day

this is V day. HA. I'm at home, went for a short study time with Jerry at the library but no motivation... so end up went to eat at 925 and then headed home before 4.30pm.
2 papers and there goes year2, but attachement starts. DAMN!

feeling so tired even though I slept for more than 12 hours. something wrong w the body already. hahaha.

today is valentine day, and i'm home.(:
guess I lost my bet w her, damn! but she couldn't think of any forfeit to punish me this sweet little boy so... <3

Now, is getting better already somehow I feel. though there is still a hinder but better than nothing for now. Loving is trusting.

Some deserve a rose, some deserve a bouquet, you deserve a garden.

siebenunddreißig
und Zählen

2012-02-10T17:55:00.002+08:00

Getting used to the Blackberry

the internet somehow like always have problem, some server problem and cannot connect. damn! haha. But, I have iPork as backup, wi-fi. HAHA.

But the important thing can txt her, call her and bbm her. <3

it's friday today!
went to work this morning at AMK hub taxi survey for my mum. damn tired.

weekends morning is at Causeway Point. slack! haha.

Exams are less than 2 weeks away..... sian...

Then attachement, sian.. holiday burned!

Don't know what to do also.

习惯成自然.

when habit become natural(direct translation)

and when thing is natural, is beautiful but the feeling is anchored.

this was the phrase I came upon, and it really got me thinking about this phrase. It really does make sense and somehow, it applies to everyday life, to me though.

but there is good and also bad.

dreiunddreißig

onwhatbasicdoihaveinpositiontocommentorquestion?HAHA.

nothing.

2012-02-08T18:31:00.003+08:00

I'm a BOLD owner

after almost an hour wait...
Finally, I got my hands on the blackberry Bold 9900 white!<3
love the color and style of it.

now, it's charging... 10hours. HAHA.

Finally, ended the final presentation today.
Went there and suddenly, the assessor change to someone else and this tutor we on good terms, hopefully got some face 'mark' HAHA.

Everything ended, left exam.

StuPIG girl say 15minute at 4.19pm,

wait for her but time check is 6:30pm.

maybe the 15min is 150 minute. HA. but is okay.. guess she suddenly busy or something.

Let's hope my bb doesn't experience the same problem of her bb. HAHA. but i have 2years warranty, so HAHA

2012-02-07T16:22:00.002+08:00

hopefully i'm a blackberry owner today

awakened by the loud banging of construction downstair and the soar of the morning sun.
kicked myself out of the bed at 10:30 and head was feeling like a hangover,
house was empty. parents went for medical reviews and younger brother in school.

met pino brothers and jerry later for one last meet up before tmr final presentation, just to make sure it is error free. pressure on tmr man. hahaha.. we can do it guys.

went to m1 to check with them whether bb stocks is in and they say is not here yet, stocks arrival comes at evening time. took number from them so that i can ring them later to check otherwise I'm b making empty disappointed trip again and again. HAHA.

now, I'm at home doing nothing, finding something to do but nothing is there for me to do. HAHA.

dreißig
if memory could be erased,
if memory could be written over,
if memory could be replaced.

2012-02-06T13:50:00.003+08:00

元宵节
初十五，新年的最后一天

it's been a wonderful weekend to close off the lunar chinese new year.

15 days just passed like this, time flies...

it's 2.13pm and my study break starts this week

but i'm having presentation on wednesday and revision lecture on thursday.
just finish editing my part of my presentation on wednesday, hopefully everything go well.

Round up the weekends

Saturday
Invited some friends over to my place to have a simple lunch. sorry xx, didn't tell you my friends were dropping by but now you know who I'm mixed with right? HAHAHA..
Gamble all the way and won near to $100.00. not bad.
Then xx forget to take her angbao and return my earpieces.. no earpieces for at least 5days.

Sunday
went Roy's place for dinner. Nice simple dinner (Y)
Ps3 and Blackjack. Luck wasn't there. No lady luck la(jonxuanie)
so did the investment...
time to get back my debts. HAHA.
Banker(home) won it all!
cab home together with Ruikun and Jennifer at around 3plus am.. all tired like a log.

so what's next for the next few days?
tmr: Prepare the final presentation
wed: Presentation
thursday: Revision Lecture
friday: maybe work.

二十九
Your task is not to seek for love, but merely to seek and find all the barriers within yourself that you have built against it

I came across a picture and that picture suddenly makes me think,
are you afraid that why we're lover?

2012-02-03T20:17:00.003+08:00

Last day of school
doesn't feel like it the last day though

ended the last day of school today. left 2 examination and 1 presentation.
today was a quite fun day though kena spot checked by police and bag check. HAHA. but it was fun uhs.... $.

another week ended.
tonight toto jackpot, hopefully, part of it. HAHA.

gettingusedtowhoami,slowl andsteady

sechsundzwanzig

2012-02-02T22:09:00.002+08:00

OUT OF STOCK!

wanted to get the blackberry 9900 but got no stock.. have to wait till tuesday... damn!!
nevermind, the price will drop as quoted by the girl who served me..

went back to school for 3 hours or less than 3 hour for one lesson, finished up the assignment which constituted a lot of percentage to the overall marks... the exam is 50% so I had every little marks I can get.

tmr, not sure whether lesson is on going not but feel like skipping since is the last day of school! see how it goes tmr. HAHA. tired and sick of going school..

having headache, toothache and stomachache and having a glass of HL milk and 9 pieces of OREO!
she is doing her report now i guess, she busyxuan. HAHA..

werthelover

2012-02-01T15:53:00.002+08:00

It's a new month
1st Feb

Finally, two years have passed, 24 months, 731 days, 43800 hours....
If everything goes smoothly tmr, I will be the owner of a Apple & Blackberry.
2 years ago, when I changed to the iPhone 3GS, it was so special. Everyone was like:
" Jon, changed iPhone ah? see leh see leh.. "
Now :
" hey, you changed iPhone ah? orh.."
HAHA.. this is how technology rapidly improves... now, 75% are smartphones.. even those workers, cleaner are using smartphones(from China & Korea).

okay, it's 1st feb. started off with marketing essentials final test, 20 multiple choice question and every terms used is so difficult to understand... had to tikam some questions..
then went to have lunch with Jerry and Namera, went to have indian food, just nice opened by my primary school friend and the first sentence he told me when he saw me...:
" hey, you grow much taller now! "
that's good, I've grown over the years.. HAHA.
after eating, we sat awhile at the coffeeshop to talk while company Jerry wait for his parents...
Then soon, his parents arrived and his parents have heard my big name for 2 years but haven't get to see me before even once.. and finally they get to see me, somemore got compliment! thanks for the wonderful compliment, I'll keep it in mind(humble) HAHA.
walk with namera for a distance then went back our separate ways, reached home at 2.15pm.

timecheck: 4.31.
and i have been going to the toilet twice.. stomach ain't feeling good.
what have i been doing? I have been SAT-ing... Study, Analysis, Throw. HAHA.

listeningtoBryanAdam

2012-01-31T20:36:00.002+08:00

dreiundzwanzig

today went back to school for nothing in the morning. thought it was revision lecture and then i was late by 30 min and when i arrived, the class ended.... revision lecture is on 9feb.. damn!

thn went to koufu, friends went to eat and then look for a empty lab to complete the project for submission today. everyone is like rushing out and trying to troubleshoot all last minute problem and documentation... and lucky we managed to get it done and finally, all downs to the presentation on 8feb.
everyone had the relief look on their face. (Y)
but my head is so pain like the brain is been compressed and crammed...........

after submission went back home straight and while waiting for dinner, watched the show Real Steel.
she haven't sms me since 12pm, her phone low battery.. sian...
back to the show, the show was quite nice and touching, love the part when the father asked the son: What do you want from me?
son : All i want is you to fight for me

then dinner served at 7.30pm, steamed fish, vegetable and lao huang gua soup. addition member on the dinner table, bro girlfriend. Bro going Tekong in two days time for 2 weeks. time flies... HAHA. good luck bro!

butwearethelovers

2012-01-30T17:37:00.002+08:00

第二十二天

Today, went to starbucks to finish up the project.
left with only like less than 24hours to submission man! panic button!
hopefully, everything can b done.
Tried the GOLD today, damn heavy man.... cannot take too much.

okay, how's life ?
hmmm.. investment quite quiet, didn't went to bother much about it.
school is coming to an end.
life ain't going good very smooth.

Life goes on as it never ends
Eyes of stone observe the trends
They never say forever gaze
Guilty roads to an endless love
There's no control
Are you with me now
Your every wish will be done
They tell me.

whereisshe?

whereisthisbeautifulgirl?

2012-01-29T11:39:00.002+08:00

Like I lost something important

this morning, I woke up from bed after 3 hours of sleep.
my body is feeling so hot and my eyes are burning, trying hard to keep it open.

I had this feeling, like my life have been restarted, it's a brand new start. and also another feeling like I just lose something very important to me in my life,
something that is very precious and without it, my life will have changes and then it not the same as before.
last night, it was a nightmare... i was trying so hard to control the tears back and fighting against myself. I know giving up will ease the pain, but after a long battle, I don't want to give up now, it doesn't make any sense.
If you say you're not committing because of no reason, then I'm willingly to wait and fight...
but if you're saying your heart is occupied by a person already, then I will willingly wish you the best and walk away without a fight.

Liebhaber

2012-01-28T23:35:00.001+08:00

ice skating

went to kallang leisure park to skate, and both my ankle has a big big blister! ahhh.. skin so pain!

2012-01-27T11:26:00.004+08:00

I could stay lost in this moment forever

last night was hell, bad headache yet I can't sleep. damn. think my body will sooner or later collaspe. tired, so tired.

All I wish is you to be true to yourself and tell me what you want.

I don't wanna see you trying so hard girl.

If I can't be the other half, just let me know. I know I'm out of the league of yours but do let me know, truth hurts but lies worse.

I know that you love me and your feelings is true to me, but hanging at this position is tough.

don't run away from it, it been 19days or maybe more,

I willingly to wait but as each day passed, it just give me the feeling that we are drifting apart.........

I hope if you are seeing this post, think about it and then we'll meet on saturday.

thefirsttears

give me a name.

2012-01-26T01:40:00.003+08:00

18th

maybe is me, maybe i'm the one. i'm the one in between them and not the other way round.
the problem wasn't her, it was me.
distance is apart of love. yes, apart, forgot the space in between.

quietfor14hrs.

2012-01-25T15:04:00.002+08:00

Day 17

went back to school for an hour of marketing essential, next week got final test.
after the class, Mr Jerry share with me something, so he needed consultation so had to go for coffee. Mr Jerry, you're hanging. HAHA. and I'm the best person to talk to. will charge to your account at the end of the month. HAHA.

surprised to hear such thing coming from him but dude, I didn't know that you was once a replacement man! HAHA.. surprised, really surprised. somemore that origin is someone we know. hahaha. thanks for sharing ah.
but seriously, you got to ask yourself whether you want it or not la cause I'm in no position to make decision for you, all I can do is to offer you some suggestion and you know, whenever you decide, I'll respect it and not say whether isn't right or wrong. you always got it cover la! no problem.

So it's a lazy wednesday, going to dinner later at mama place. steamboat and hotplate for sure! eat and eat! like a shiok! (Y)

笨蛋!
对啦我是笨蛋！
appleofmyeye

2012-01-24T23:39:00.003+08:00

恭喜发财

happy lunar new year everyone

wish everyone good health and wealth, prosper in business and get good result for studies.

初一初二
Day 15&16..

this chinese new year is much of last year. same place visiting, same people, same places. only differences? lesser of gambling & drinking.
surprisingly. more of just sitting there stoning and eating.. maybe eating was more of this year.
then visiting, all the older people are asking the same questions...
your son got girlfriend not?
jonathan got park toh not?
how come didn't bring girlfriend?
how come didn't go out?
I paused and don't even know what should I say.
and have to avoid the conversation and dodge the gossip groups.
brother brought girlfriend for the first time and then I had to face the conference.......
but really, this Chinese New Year, I'm just eating and eating... old already ah..
then my uncle share with me, he didn't work for the past 30years, and he didn't had the least paper qualification. now did he did it? he studied gambling. HAHA. he studied how people gamble, the way people gamble and through there, he somehow 'cheat' his way.
So he show me how to do and it was simple, he only told me this :
" know what you are doing and observe other, make others be afraid of you, make them scare to gamble with you, then you're on top " and i think it really work.
time to use this line the next time i gamble with those people. HAHA.

Back to reality....
back to doing program tmr, hopefully I can squeeze the time and get the mood.
heading back to school for an hour lecture, marketing essential.
New Year over already, nothing to look forward to, life goes on.

trying to make a saturday for friends to come over to gamble and have a little bite.

sometimesidon'tevenknowwhereIamstill

2012-01-22T07:47:00.002+08:00

初喜
14th day

reunion dinner.

4thmonthwekneweachother

2012-01-20T19:05:00.003+08:00

End of FRIEDay
Day12

Had like only 4hours of sleep and getting out of bed to study but I end up waking up to eat prata and head back to sleep. So didn't really study!
at the least, the tests didn't really fried me I think. Managable but not going to get scoring marks. but you know, I don't expect too much.
everyone face and the atmosphere was so down in class today, everyone feeling the stone but when 5pm arrived, the stone was lifted and everyone was smiling.. HAHA. GOOD! time to celebrate Chinese New Year and welcome the new year!
So it's friday, so it's enough of school, I got a 龙(long) weekend man!

Finally the week ended,
mentallyphysically exhausted. everyday drained and even my friends are saying im growing skinner and skinner. damn! that's not good. time to buff up otherwise I'll b skeleton!
Everyone busy with their own lives.

Distance is a part of love.

willimakeit

isn't wrong of me to feel this way

2012-01-19T21:33:00.003+08:00

Friday FRIEDay!
Day11

will the fisherman stop trying before the fish decides?

Tmr is friday, and I declared it as FRIEDay cause it frying my brain. two test and assessment. tmr all together. Programming and Software Engineering...

then come the project based assessment, luckily is almost done for this. left some add on and all.

Once tmr is over, most of the module is almost done.

left w two written exams at the end of feb.

Went for my haircut just now, supposed to go to the saloon to cut but crowded so had to stick to my barber downstair. my hair looks like Tintin. HAHA.

Chinese New Year coming, mum say need to get one more top for Day number1!(:

Saturday shopping!

sometimesiwishweareondifferentroles.

2012-01-18T12:08:00.003+08:00

People come and go
day10
one more chance?
you promise me.

People come and go in your life, some came, some left, some are here to stay, some are not.

Life is always full of obstacles,
some choose to overcome it,
some choose to leave it there as long as it doesn't affect them,
some choose to solve it when problems arrived.

Had a another bad dream last night, almost same the previous one. damn.
maybe we trying, trying to hard, maybe we torn apart. Its' empty.

~~going for haircut later.~~

ittakestwotobelieve

2012-01-17T21:48:00.003+08:00

How come cannot work leh??
Day9

damn, stuck at my program and I'm lazy of having to troubleshoot and google for the solution, worse come to worse, I shall hardcode it! DAMN! I have till friday to show my program.
Half week of school ending and I'm so tired already, don't want to do work, just relax.
Tmr skipping/no lesson so going to have a haircut and maybe join the dudes in town. If I go, first time go town with my poly friends. HAHA.

ain't putting too much hopes Idontwannafalltoohard

2012-01-15T23:45:00.003+08:00

Ended 2 days Work.
day7

Working at Causeway Point this weekend. it was super tiring though not much people taking cab.
started work at 7am on 14Jan and seriously that's minor hangover wasn't helping much.....
New working shift for this year after signing the new contract with LTA.

morning shift: 7am-10am
evening shift: 5pm-12am

however, as Causeway Point is undergoing renovation and think they are behind schedule, they had to close the taxi stand at around 11pm to allow construction work to be carried out so to say in short, both days i work till 11.15 and 10.30 resepectively. like a shiok ah! and still get paid till 12midnight. HAHA.

New week, New beginning again. Damn!
What to look forward this week? for school(BOO!)
Second Assessment on SACP on Tuesday/Friday
RAD test on Friday
Software Engineering test on Friday
Damn all the tests. but I need at least a B to pull the grades up so... I will have to study! DAMN!

What to look forward this week? outside school(YAY!)
Reunion Dinner!(:

Damn, really need some financial management. Can't believe I just threw $100 into the sea. HAHA. damn! Pay coming in tmr and then chinese new year!! angbaos comes in. I seriously spend money without thinking sometimes and that weakness has caused me to lose thousand of dollars. HAHA.......
Less than a month to change my phone! Hopefully, the BB price drop till $200 by then when I want to change. HAHA. Then phone bill won't be too harsh on me! unless I'm sticking to the 300minute outgoing calls.

2012-01-13T10:04:00.000+08:00

5th day
we met up today

After 5 days, we met each other again. for dinner(: we had Mac Prosperity meal! quite nice but the burger is spicy! my first time eating Mac Chinese New Year meal. HAHA. mountain tortoise.
After dinner, wanted to sit down and talk but you sure no interest so I thought maybe you wanted to go home so walk you home.
Sorry about the attitude that night, was abit very very frustrated and tired about the current situation.
at the end, we found a place to sit and talk 'properly' but after talking for so long, we didn't managed to really get it solved.
I really hope it can really be done soon..... hanging for too long ain't nice... ending it doesn't solved it too.

I'm not tired of chasing you, but I'm tired of you not being true to yourself

2012-01-12T20:29:00.003+08:00

Day 4
my boss ask me not to call her boss. she angrybird la!

Today is thursday, started the day early and was feeling so cold in the morning..... freezing so left the house in black hood jacket with many smiley faces on it(:
went to meet the dudes at Yishun mrt and trained to school. morning train are always packed!

First lesson, most of them slacking and teacher say the module not done well, 15% of the cohort failed and more is to come. I expect I'm one of them though.
Then my marketing essential report got a A! (: what you're, you achieve there.
then my digital interface get F! but don't need to press panic button yet, cause i think the cohort also somewhere there and moderation will do it all! *wink! Class ended at 6pm and went back home to have dinner.

Today mummy birthday, HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUM! w LOVES<3

So had dinner downstair, zi char. HAHA. Without my second brother who was working at AMK hub.
then after dinner, went to Aloy grandfather funeral. sat there for an hour before going home.

Timecheck: 11.48pm and I'm on the line with you. meeting tmr already still want to talk on the phone, sticky !
Less than 24hour before the meeting. nervous? excited? looking forward?
to be honest, I also don't know what should be the feeling but all I know tmr everything will b told, hopefully. i think.

at this point of time, is wiser to mention names as two names are involved.

2012-01-11T11:28:00.004+08:00

Day 3
shld i dread friday to come or look forward?

today, skip two lectures and stayed at home to finish up the project that need to be assessed this coming friday. but I'm sure I'll end up getting stuck so I need help tmr pino brothers(:
My saviour!
School is feeling like shit, Let's get it over together and then it will be a long long break of course, there is exam to look forward to! HAHA. but we can make it through right? we always do! HAHA.

In the evening going to Mosque Square to eat korean food to celebrate Mama birthday!<3
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MAMA! thanks for everything you did for me and your love towards me!

Just received news of close friend Aloy grandfather passing on, my condolence to you and family. Will drop by tmr to pay my last respect.

tmr Mum birthday, but got no time to have celebration, I have class the whole day! damn! idiot school, shld have some kind of 'family time MC'. Spend more time w the family mah.

Today, watched a tv program on other countries and Holland seem a nice place for me.
the schools there are not result orientated and the best part, they put family as priority. Workers need to work a certain hours and then off they go on the dot and company their children or spouses. I like(Y) Life shld be this way.....

Yes people, I know I'm dumb stupid and all, but before we make any decision, just let that day to come before we make any finalize decision. You guys understand me that no matter what, I'll still go for it. Especially those people who know me well, even though I say that way, my heart think otherwise, I'm glad you people know me that well and that's also my weakness. My good is my weakness.

would i end up picking the pieces alone?

last night we talked on the phone, missed those times when we first talked on the phone but now, the feeling is just different. guess the feeling is a one time kind, When is there is there and when it gets break off, the feeling will not return that easily.

2012-01-10T19:13:00.006+08:00

Day 2
today is day 2

Woke up at 11.45am after a long long sleep, body aching when I woke up but had to get out of bed and get ready for class. Met the dudes before heading to school together.
School was slow and boring, all the tests projects assignments...

sometimes, I feel like stabbing myself in the dark for not studying and getting my science done, otherwise I wld have gone to Sport related courses maybe in RP and I wouldn't have to go through all this shit.. guess I'm stuck with all this shits. half-fuck!

Class ended at 6pm. Then headed home.
feeling damn sick now, head heavy soon a headache will occur! thn I'll collapse.
then everything can b back to their way it shld be.

Day 2.
Trying not to enter social networking sites as much as I don't want to have those thoughts running through my mind.
As minutes passed, hours passed, days passed, the mind keeps running and running... got to occupy the mind..

As days passed, I slowly get used to it and I know what's the outcome roughly.

i'm ready to face the truth.

Glad I handled the situation well though I was near to break down but I was strong to hold on.

2012-01-09T15:05:00.004+08:00

Day One
this is day one.

went to school, presentation today and I haven't even seen the finalized slides.

unlucky ME!
and morning, everyone is out of the house and when I was bathng, i realised that I had no keys! so with hair dripping and body still wet, I wrap myself with the towel and quickly dialled for my mum for help...

lucky, one of her friend who stayed at our blk who had our keys was still at home and about to head to work... if i was one step slower... i'm caged!

thn came when I was dressing, i saw a thread coming out from the top so I pulled it and the button came off... damn unlucky!
bad day to start uhs ? HAHA.

while waiting for the bus, the girl who kept my keys called me, maybe she saw my tweet. had a little chat and poor girl had stomach cramps due to elmo. bet she is in pain because everytime elmo come dropping by, she will be in pain the first day! and i can't do anything about! take care and drink warm water! ease the pain!

it's 3.19pm, heading to work at 4pm at Cairnhill!

this week is Mummy(s) birthday! a day after another!

happytohearyourvoicebutsadtohearyoureinpain

2012-01-08T16:17:00.004+08:00

All she knows

话总说不清楚
该怎么明了
一字一句像圈套

it's history but.... if it clinging on, then there is no point.

Sorry

I'm sorry that if I hurt you and make you sad in any ways after telling you those harsh words but I hope you understand it will be better for both of us to get it done clearly. it makes a better future.

I'll wait for your

answer

if you're in the past then don't get me into the present, i ain't want a part of something that is in the past.

2012-01-06T14:29:00.002+08:00

'Cause tonight I'm feeling like an astronaut, sending SOS from this tiny box

prevarication, barrier, conceptualize.
world behind the wall.
just another day... and I'll free myself from this misery.

2012-01-05T18:04:00.006+08:00

WALL between

That's all I feel after that day. the scattered pieces are not easy to pick up and put it back
There is a wall between the two of us and the wall looks not that easy to break down and everyday since after that day wasn't that good and the feeling is arduous.
The sourish feeling piercing into the heart and mind, what can i do?
The wall has to be taken down before anything can move from there* and as it goes on my world is just so desolated... *or someone has to leave
the greatest fighter sometimes also give up but I don't wanna to, I want to carry on fighting but I wanna fight for something, something that's is worth for a fight.

mentally broken down.

2012-01-04T17:12:00.002+08:00

Baby, I don't want to waste another day
Keeping it inside, it's killing me
'Cause all I ever want
It comes right down to you, to you
I wish that I could find the words to say
Baby, I would tell you every time you leave
I'm inconsolable.

timecheck: 2154hrs. it's past close to 7hrs and haven't received any texts and it was supposed to be at 1800hrs.

why why always me de uhs
没有你在我有多难熬.

2012-01-03T22:54:00.001+08:00

话总说不清楚该怎么明了

2012-01-03T17:03:00.005+08:00

3 January 2012

Concpetualize

Went back to school today, for 2hrs and couldn't enter the lab because the part time tutor has no access to the room because it was somehow 'locked' due to the Open House 2012 this year. So after getting help from a full time tutor, we managed to enter the lab and the tutor looked quite pissed off.
And after today onwards, no lesson till all the way to Monday! shiok! not involved in the Open House. So holiday for 3days!

Was surfing the net and saw until this, things to do on date.
Whilst playing hard to get looks suave and elegant, research says avoid it. Instead you should try to act available on a date(like not looking at the handphone or holding on to the phone).
Firstly, because it’s clear you both fancy each other, otherwise why would you have agreed to go on a date?
Secondly, playing hard to get doesn’t actually work. It is thought that we find people attractive when they are hard for everyone else to get, but love the fact that they are easy for us to have. Therefore on your date, try to say things like “I’ve been single for a while. It’s not that I haven’t had any offers, I just really liked you”.
Or if someone asks you to dance or offers to buy you a drink, politely say no and give all your attention to your date. Make them aware that you’re a catch, but remind them that they are the one who has caught you.

perplex

2012-01-01T15:56:00.001+08:00

Happy New Year

another 365 days passed and we welcome another new year. 2012.
What's your resolution ?
no resolution.
Do what you want to do. of course without making people feeling worried for you and blah blah. do the right thing. (:

What to expect this year ?
hmm.. European Cup 2012. shiok! African Nation Cup 2012, Shiok!
another month and I can change my handphone, looking at blackberry 9900. hopefully it wouldn't cost that much.
another 6 month and I'm ain't in probation list! like a shiok! (:

2011-12-31T21:52:00.002+08:00

time check: 2152hrs.

Just put down the phone w mr Roy lim asking me to go for drink at Edwin's place. You guys go ahead la, not tonight.
another few hours to the New Year and I'll be spending my new year at home. for the first time.
even mummy is surprised to hear my presence when she called home.
I'm heading to bed now, guess I will b sleeping through the year. Cause I'm prepared to sleep through the year since last night. So Happy New Year in advance everybody!

May everyone who is counting down to have fun with the people they loved.

2011-12-31T18:44:00.000+08:00

A trip away to a island w the dudes

It's the new year eve and we, Roy, Edwin, RuiKun, Jerry decided to go Pulau Ubin to cycle the tough terrains. Met at 9.30am and burden kid (Edwin) misses the bus that he supposed to board so we end up waiting for him at Yishun and board his bus to head to Tampines before transferring to 29 to Changi Village.
10.30am and we were waiting for our departure.

Didn't eat breakfast and we headed off to Changi jetty to take the $2.50 bump boat across. The journey was not long and not short.

Once we reached the shore, we went to pray at the temple before going hunting for a good bicycle and rented a bicycle for $10 the whole day. Mountain bike, with suspension, let's fly.

Just an hour into the journey and I was feeling damn weak because of the empty stomach. The path there is so hilly, up and down... after like 90minute into the trail, vision was blurred and feel like vomiting.

And the best part, we got separated into two group when we reached a intersection.

Stupid Edwin and Roy went ahead without waiting for us, and left me, Jerry and Ruikun behind and we stop at the intersection and rested and waited before I make the decision to take the right turn thinking it was the 'right' path. As we got deeper, we saw the road and then it was the sea so we hit a dead end and had to cycle back to the intersection and everyone was so tired and weak we had to push the bike up the hill....... and then at the starting point, we saw the two stupid dudes, cycling very fast as though they were on a search party. After meeting up, we went to see the cliff and then headed back to have lunch, everyone is hungry. HAHA..

After lunch, it was back to the bike and everyone was on 'full tank' and everyone chiong the downhill and uphill before heading to Chek Java to see the mangroves and the dudes went hunting for this chocolate girl and who knows, met her at Chek Java and everyone was so high. HAHAHAHA..

Cover almost the whole island and everyone was feeling tired so we decided to call it a day and at around 4.30pm, we were heading back to Singapore.
After arrival, went to Changi Village to eat our tea break. Everyone was tired and the face was red like a bamboo ass. HAHA..

Everyone headed home and awaiting for plan for later countdown.

2011-12-30T01:21:00.000+08:00

The price I pay for a low profile
nothing I can do but go your way, but I hope it works out.

alright, so countdown date has been cancelled due to some idontknowhowtosay .
always but maybe I'm used to it so I should be spending the countdown at home unless I decided to go out.

I don't feel anything, happy nor sad but the choice was yours and you made it so yeah. Being understand is good but if .......

going pulua ubin tmr for cycling w the dudes.

I had something to look forward to and suddenly everything just diminish because of a friend. sometimes,

iaskmyselfwheredoistand?

2011-12-25T17:42:00.005+08:00

Merry Christmas

Spend my christmas night w Miss Xuan at Vivo City. Met her at Paragon Coach before heading to Harbour Front. Super packed at town, it crowded shit! and so we skip town and went to Vivo to have dinner. Walked around and everywhere were queues before can enter the resturant so we walked around before settling down for Seoul Garden Hotpot( something new! ). Order their seafood miso soup and the beef kind of rice, not very nice though. very korean feel kind but lose to the korean though.
After eating dinner, went to buy Mcflurry and sat outside Vivo and enjoy the night breeze, apparantly it didn't rain that day though the sky was overcasted w grey clouds. Wanted to head to Henderson Waves but it was getting dark so we headed to the Vivo roof and sat there and we exchange our present and parted my love scrapbook to Miss Xuan, the 5days effort. And she handed me my present and I open it, it was a Paul Frank different lip gloss.
*got me thinking whether isn't my lips is not sweet enough.

Thn took some unglam photos before leaving that place at around 11.30pm and headed for the last train to Bishan through Circle Line.

loveyouxuan.

2011-12-24T17:57:00.004+08:00

Christmas Eve
Dinner and 2nd Brother birthday celebration at Chestervale.

three little brothers.
cousins.
family low.

1.5 kg of ham.
home system ktv.

the family.

Christmas Eve was spend w my family at my 9th uncle place.
Wonderful home cooked nasi lemak dinner (even though I had it for lunch, malay one) and 1.5kg of ham and many many junk foods. Plus home system Ktv!Thn cake cutting at 10pm, celebrating in advance of brother Christmas birthday. (:
happy birthday dude! welcome to the semi man world! semi. HAHA..

2011-12-24T16:14:00.002+08:00

Christmas Eve

When a man loves a woman
Can't keep his mind on nothin' else
He'd trade the world
For a good thing he's found
If she is bad, he can't see it
She can do no wrong
Turn his back on his best friend
If he puts her down

When a man loves a woman
Spend his very last dime
Trying to hold on to what he needs
He'd give up all his comforts
And sleep out in the rain
If she said that's the way
It ought to be

When a man loves a woman
I give you everything I got (yeah)
Trying to hold on
To your precious love
Baby please don't treat me bad

When a man loves a woman
Deep down in his soul
She can bring him such misery
If she is playing him for a fool
He's the last one to know
Loving eyes can never see

Yes when a man loves a woman
I know exactly how he feels
'cause baby, baby, baby
I am a man
When a man loves a woman

2011-12-24T12:00:00.002+08:00

sometimes there will still be fear

2011-12-22T22:56:00.001+08:00

I'm still good at it

It's been so long and yet I'm still haven't lost my touches. GREAT!
Alright, been rather busy doing nothing and almost half a week is gone. Damn.. Time sure flies now uhs!
Mum today suddenly tell me to stop investing already, I will cut down though. I'll try.

Hmmm.. Dude, here is a friendly advice after what you told me today, I'm here to help you so that you wouldnt anyhow kind know, besides I'm the expert. HAHAHAHA.. But I didn't expect you to b that 'guru' uhs! Chiong ah YOU? Just don't give any more sign otherwise the girl might misunderstand and thn later a lot of problems ah. Later she take you as a replacement, a temporary wall to lean on or maybe she is alone and needs someone to company but still, don't give her the wrong idea if you don't want the relationship cause it will hurt both parties at the end of the day. Take my advice uhs. Know where to draw the line, it shld be fine. HAHAHA..

My dear babe is busing with her school project so obviously.... Goodnight then afternoon and evening are like bored to me, doing nothing and everything seem to be a routine now..
Went for a birthday lunch to celebrate my second brother Christmas birthday this afternoon at BBQ Chicken at northpoint, budget sia! Didn't had the appetite to eat so shared w mummy half sized chicken. Otw home, was walking with my mum and she saw her friend and happen my mum was hooking her hands around my hand and her friend got jealous and like : 'wah, her son so guai so loving'
HAHAHA.. Auntie, you got no daughter otherwise you sure ask your daughter come chase me de! HAHA
A heavy rain just dampen the mood of going out again. But still had to go down to AMK to collect christmas present.
Christmas is just 2 days away. Christmas Eve family dinner at 9th uncle place, thn Christmas Day shld be a stay home Christmas for me till night time before my date tells me what time will she be ready. Channel 5 better have some Christmas Stay Home nice movies for me to pass my time man!

thirdmonth

2011-12-20T11:58:00.003+08:00

Ended 3 days work

3days at Causeway Point.
tired but it was okay as compared to working at town man.. not that tired as travelling time is shorter and working place not so packed.. so it was well done.

met a couple of weird people, one taxi driver even wind down his window and shouted: do survey ah ? got people thn do survey no people don't do, government f**ked up and I give him that awkward smile. HAHA.. humans..

going for movie later w kueh. HAHA.

2011-12-16T21:57:00.003+08:00

Classic

I'll be the one...

I guess you were lost when I met you
Still there were tears in your eyes
So out of trust and I knew
No more than mysteries and lies

There you were, wild and free
Reachin' out like you needed me
A helping hand to make it right
I am holding you all through the night

I'll be the one (I'll be the one)
Who will make all your sorrows undone
I'll be the light (I'll be the light)
When you feel like there's nowhere to run
I'll be the one...

To hold you and make sure that you'll be alright
'Cause my fear is gone
And I want to take you from darkness to light

There you were, wild and free
Reachin' out like you needed me
A helping hand to make it right
I am holding you all through the night

To hold you, and make sure that you'll be alright...

You need me like I need you
We can share our dreams comin' true
I can show you what true love means
Just take my hand, baby please

I'll be the one
I'll be the light
Where you can run
To make it alright
I'll be the one
I'll be the light
Where you can run

I'll be the one
I'll be the light
Where you can run
To make it alright
I'll be the one
I'll be the light
Where you can run
To make it all right
I'll be the one
To hold you
And make sure that you'll be alright
I'll be the one.

2011-12-16T21:06:00.002+08:00

Guess what!

it's the holiday!
today, finally the project was assessed though, just passed but you know, did the best to get what need to be done. Definitely thanks Gene!(: without you, I think I will die ah! but at least I can do the login function uhs! HAHA. more to do though but you know, is the holiday... definition of holiday : a day on which one is exempt from work **
**sources from merriam-webster.com/dictionary

3days work tmr @ Causeway Point near godma house, like a shiok! can go back to rest during break and bath.

What's hot?
SMRT North South breakdown! HAHA.
they should just sack the current woman CEO la..
how can ask a woman to lead a big company like that.... Ask someone who works for the job and not the salary man!
Everytime when something major happened, is always I'm sorry that such thing happen and blah blah blah.. like that I also can be the CEO or even some of my friends fit the bill. Just take pay and anything happen, just apologise. Solution and learn from it..

it's scary when one speak about the past, you never know whether is talking about you or someone else from the past.

I'm terrified.

2011-12-15T16:23:00.002+08:00

those days

we had no worries and just laughters that fills the atmosphere.

2011-12-15T15:46:00.004+08:00

sometimes, it just make one wanna give up

I'm a fighter, I always fight till the end, to get what I want...
but sometimes, there is always this psychology barrier whereby you wanna stop trying or fighting.
And that's when people calls it : " give up/ loser/ excuses "
But come to think of it, at least I put up a good fight, the process of learning throughout the fight. that's the point.
Sometimes it not the result that I get after the fight,
Sometimes even before the fight, I know I will be losing the fight but I still wanna to put up a good fight, to learn within the fight, to gain experience.
Sometimes even though I know I will lose the fight, then there will be a twist in the fight and I end up being the winner but it doesn't happen VERY often..

When I was a kid, my dream was

" tie my shoelaces, walk out into the field and there I see, 75,000 people looking at me and hundred of photographers snapping away and there goes the chanting of my name from the roar of the crowd ' Jon Low Jon Low Jon Low ' "

but that was a dream. To be able to achieve that dream, I needed more support from the folks but they thought it didn't bring me far so I shld stick to books and not boots.

School fuckedup Life
Another test flunked today. Seriously.. die ah. prepared for the worst already. Tmr individual assessment and my program ain't working the way it supposed to be, confirm another F. if F was just a fantastic.
Break is next week and guess have to meet up to finish the program Guys. I was hoping we can meet and finish the WHOLE project in a day so that we wouldn't have to worry about anything man cause I'm seriously tired and like delaying. HAHA. we'll see how and make a day.

Jon Life's
Some updates about me...
Just lost $300 plus last week... so had to go back to work to gain the figure back otherwise my Mum will start to make noise again. HAHA..
Mr Roy Lim going Taiwan on Sunday, bye dude. Come back in one piece and don't bring a taiwan girlfriend back uhs and don't anyhow UHS! :P
XX is busy with her school project so our next date will be somewhere around next week I think.

a distance is still a distance so let's not keep the distance too apart

2011-12-14T13:52:00.000+08:00

The same role

2011-12-13T20:57:00.001+08:00

I love you, say we're together baby,
say we're together oh..
I need you, I need you forever baby, you and me.

2011-12-12T20:01:00.000+08:00

小酒窝长睫毛是你最美的记号
我每天睡不着想念你的微笑
你不知道你对我多么重要
有了你生命完整的刚好
小酒窝长睫毛迷人得无可救药
我放慢了步调感觉像是喝醉了
终于找到心有灵犀的美好
一辈子暖暖的好我永远爱你到老

2011-12-09T23:43:00.000+08:00

I drove a Wish today

Yes! Finally today my license has put to good use in my work area.

Supposely I thought I'll b doing taxt survey checking but who knows, I end up driving my supervisor ah heng around to do taxi survey checking. like a shiok! but the car aircon is damn damn cold! and I didn't drive with the P-plate on. HAHA.

So met up with Ah Heng at Bugis before driving him around but a bad headache was aching in the process and to make things worse, the traffic was horrible, alot of waiting and waiting... stuck at Orchard like for an hour plus..... traffic was so.... damn! and it was only friday....

another day of 'wishing' tmr! (Y)

and xuan has ended her tests and she keep saying she failed.. tsk tsk! think I'm going to owe her a year supply of meals then!

2011-12-08T22:06:00.002+08:00

What's the different between Beautiful and Gorgeous ?

Beautiful is
Indescribably pleasing, but not necessarily sexually attractive.
Unconventional beauty is something that you don't know what it is, but you think that person is wonderful. Being hot does not make a person beautiful.
In short, it means to describe something that has internal and external beauty.

Gorgeous
Splendid or sumptuous in appearance
in other words means : used to describe something that is external.

now that's the difference between beautiful and gorgeous.

2011-12-07T16:12:00.002+08:00

a phone call always solve everything. but it doesn't solve the future, it only solve the current present. last night talk was great, after 4days, we talked to each other. (:

and now, she is sleeping because she say she feels hot( she always do) and gonna to be sick so she better take good care of herself and I promise her I will get back to regular eating which I did. Just finish my lunch, duck and roasted meat with winter melon scallop soup. BEST!

2011-12-06T20:46:00.004+08:00

Terrified

You, by the light
Is the greatest find
In a world full of wrong
You're the thing that's right

Finally made it through the lonely
To the other side

You set it again, my heart's in motion
Every word feels like a shooting star
I'm at the edge of my emotions
Watching the shadows burning in the dark

And I'm in love
And I'm terrified
For the first time and the last time
In my only life

And this could be good
It's already better than that
And nothing's worse
Than knowing you're holding back

I could be all that you need
If you let me try

You set it again, my heart's in motion
Every word feels like a shooting star
I'm at the edge of my emotions
Watching the shadows burning in the dark

And I'm in love
And I'm terrified
For the first time and the last time
In my only

I only said it 'cause I mean it
I only mean 'cause it's true
So don't you doubt what I've been dreaming
'Cause it fills me up and holds me close whenever I'm without you

You set it again, my heart's in motion
Every word feels like a shooting star
I'm at the edge of my emotions
Watching the shadows burning in the dark

And I'm in love
And I'm terrified
For the first time and the last time
In my only

it's difficult... but i seriously don't wanna lose you.

2011-12-05T22:13:00.004+08:00

a anchored ship will never move.

a anchored ship will never move from where it is, it will just stay there and will not continue with its beautiful journey. Even if a thousand tugboats pull it, it will still not move as long as the anchor stays anchored. maybe the ship misses the previous captain, maybe the ship don't want history to repeat itself like how the previous captain bring it to rocky stormy waves and the ship got damages, maybe the ship cannot forget the previous captain, besides, is the captain who left for another ship... maybe.. we never know what the ship is thinking until it leaked out everything.

nevertheless,you'reloved.

2011-12-04T13:21:00.005+08:00

some people need to work hard for it.
some people just wait for it to come.

sometimes, I'm the former. sometimes, I'm the latter. But most of the time, I'm the former.
it so scary sometimes, whether to be happy or to be fear. But whatever it is, as long as I'm happy with what I'm doing, I'll continuing doing, the result or outcome is not what I want but I can't expected anything in life. Sometimes one go through pain, or suffering just to work for something but they wouldn't mind the pain because they are happy with what they are doing and enjoy doing it.

to b continued..

Sometimes you revolved around the person, but the person doesn't have you revolving around. maybe they don't know how to express, maybe they don't know what it takes, maybe they don't want to do it because they don't want history to repeat.

A person can be a world to you, but you might be a world to that person.

2011-12-04T11:22:00.001+08:00

puffy eyes.

2011-12-04T00:11:00.002+08:00

Semi Flood @ work

today, went to work at Upper Thomson for Occupancy Taxi Survey. damn, when it was 3pm, it kept raining heavily and didn't stop... lucky the overhead bridge has shelter over it and soon, a flood was formed and then I was getting drenched and feeling cold but I managed to brave the storm and make it till 7pm. HAHA. I still have two more days to go and somehow the money i'm earning is quite small but it was worth the sweat and all. HAHA..

ps: birthday post in 22/11 post.

2011-12-02T21:50:00.002+08:00

How one thing can cause a turn.

9.15pm, my day just took a little twist, felt much better now after a phone call and I'm contactable again :P
wanted to make babe worry for abit for me la.. Everytime also I worry :P
think she is 'forcing' herself to study now and got some negotiation terms into her brain because she has tests the whole of next week! but jiayou hor! I'm behind you always, don't worry about having no time to company me or sms me. If you need the time, just let me know, I'll understand (:

2011-12-02T21:35:00.000+08:00

2 Dec 2011, The day I'm fucked by both my phone.

This is absolutely rubbish. My Blackberry curve gone crazy and keep rebooting and cannot even press the button and when i switch to my iPhone and when I didn't have the pin to open the SIM card, it failed and suddenly detect SIM card cannot be installed. DAMN! now... Seriously, I'm feel so half fucked by both phone. FUCK!

2011-12-02T18:33:00.000+08:00

How bad was my day ?
Real bad.

First up, early in the morning, I’m up at 6.30am after sleeping at 3am and I was totally tired, I had to drag myself to the bathroom and take a hot shower and then I got changed and took the car keys and left home however, Mr Tan was uncontactable and he wasn’t picking up my calls. So, I drove down to Yishun and waited downstair his block and I told myself, wait for another 10minutes and then I go on my own to school and study instead. Who knows, just nice at the 10th min, I call him again and this time he picked it up and he came down then. Drove to Khatib and bought kopi-c to kick start to the day, at least Mr Tan know how to be human ah, buy me kopi.
took a slow drive to school due to traffic condition, nearly had a close collision with a Toyota after he wanted to switch to my lane when I was coming in real quick, gave him a horn and not the finger as there is a lady in his car, respecting the woman. HAHA.
Down at Yio Chu Kang road, traffic was moving slowly and had to give way to some ladies driver who wanted to come to my lane as they were on the bus lane, I gladly give way to them and everyone give me that smile and hand gesture, Thanks. (Y)

Reach school just nice for the test and didn’t really study at all… and the best part, 42 marks came from coding and obviously I died there. Damn!
Then went for lunch, prawn noodle.
After lunch, went for next lesson but took a 40min AWOL to go to YCK squash centre to book squash court for papa. HAHA. Then came the second unlucky thing,
my blackberry went berserk and reboot itself over and over again and none of the buttons could be press….. damn.. switch to my iPhone as backup and was using it happily but still pissed with the blackberry though… thn the teacher wanted to come and piss me off and ask me to do demo for a certain program and I was so pissed when he ask me to show the demo, I told him off :
if I know, I still come school ?
Obviously teacher was speechless and carry on, you just mess with the wrong guy at the wrong time man.
Class ended at 5pm, so heading to SJI to pick godparents from KL trip with the school. As I was abit lost, I used the Google Map to help me out and when I was done with it and arrived at my destination, the iPhone suddenly cannot detect my SIM card.. Damn.. HOW FUCKING UNLUCKY! And I didn’t had the needle or equipment to take the SIM out….. so in conclusion, I had considered the two best brand phones and yet I was uncontactable and unable to use it… Thanks Steve Job and Co, for making the SIM card as small as a…. only a needle can fit hole. No wonder the iPhone is not satisfying cause big things cannot go in. HAHA.. So now lucky I had my laptop with me but the battery is dying out and timecheck: 6.33pm and I’m waiting for my godparents...

2011-11-28T16:59:00.000+08:00

near crash.

2011-11-27T15:10:00.003+08:00

May BABY

Stubborn and hard-hearted. Agree!
Strong-willed and highly motivated. Agree!
Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Agree!
Attracts others and loves attention. SUPER AGREE!
Deep feelings. to certain extent
Beautiful physically and mentally. AGREE to the max!
Firm Standpoint. Agree
Needs no motivation. PUI!
Shy towards opposite sex. Not too sure yet ^^
Easily consoled. sometimes
Systematic (left brain). Wrong, no brain at all :P
Loves to dream. Agree, Day dream!
Strong clairvoyance. sometimes
Understanding. sometimes
Sickness usually in the ear and neck. and also the mind :P
Good imagination. have to agree
Good physical. not too sure yet ^^
Weak breathing. yeah!
Loves literature and the arts. reading considered as literature, photographing considered as a art
Loves traveling. Dubai!
Dislike being at home. AGREE!
Restless and very clumsy. and forgetFOOL!
Not having many children. die la, I want many leh.
Hardworking & High-spirited. yes!

November baby(:

Trustworthy and loyal.
Very passionate and dangerous.
Wild at times.
Knows how to have fun.
Sexy and mysterious.
Everyone is drawn towards your inner and outer beauty and independent personality. Playful, but secretive.
Very emotional and temperamental sometimes.
Meets new people easily and very social in a group.
Fearless and independent.
Can hold their own.
Stands out in a crowd.
Essentially very smart.
Usually, the greatest men are born in this month.
If you ever begin a relationship with someone from this month, hold on to them because their one of a kind.

what the.. totally talking about me la, not November baby :P

2011-11-26T15:29:00.001+08:00

eating sushi under the shelter could be so lovely.

it's not the duration, is the process <3

2011-11-25T17:31:00.002+08:00

爱相随

这条路不会是一个普普通通的路，不是那么容易走，

要沉的住气。
可是我会尽力地给自己机会，跟自己战争。

到情人到了在一起

2011-11-24T19:57:00.006+08:00

This is a battle,
A battle that I'm fighting with myself.

When we turn out the lights, the two of us alone together, something's just not right, But girl, you know that I would never ever let another's touch come between the two of us cause no one else will ever take your place.

if saying it is a task, thn showing will be a uphill

2011-11-22T23:15:00.000+08:00

Happy 19th Jonathan Low

xuan me mum dad.
xuan me joh jor.
son w his lovely parents.
the dudes
the ladies. always this fortunate. idk why.

My presents
from one person. WAHAHA.

the frame. I think these pictures look damn nice and funny! (:
my lovely nice bracelet(:
and the box of JON Present. From card to flip card and photo frame and not forgetting a CD. The CD was brilliant and you were great in it! LOVE IT!
Not forgetting....
The one and only sweetest and delicious cheese cake!<3
*surprise that I had a picture of this uhs ?

guess what, grew by year older again. HAHA. But this year, celebration is more of a low profile thingy. Family dinner followed by a short cake cutting session at my place with some friends.
Dinner at as usual, Swensen with family and this time, addition add on. Miss Xuanxuan joined us.

After dinner, went back to my place to cut cake bought by Malcom. Called him, Jordan P, Weilun and Wendy. HAHA. they had a little catch up session cause all of them didn't see each other for quite a time so they need to thank me for 'allowing' them to catch up.
Then send Miss Xuanxuan back and she got a tiny winy little surprise when I got to her place downstair, she brought a shoebox like down and everything was for me inside. From a card, to a photo frame, to a cheesecake and bracelet. It was filling man! She tried to prank me with those difficult to blow candle but I still managed to blow it!
And just before midnight, we bid missyou to each other. HAHA.

Thanks for the wonderful dinner Mummy and Daddy.
Thanks for the red packet Mama and Papa.
Thanks for the cake Co.
Thanks for the wishes friends and relatives.

And Thank You Miss Phua Mei Xuan, for everything you do, I can see the heart and sincerity, the CD, super sweet and nice, didn't expect that but still, it was great! (:

birthday wishes, I always had two for the past birthday, this year I have 3. The first one, is to wish everyone happy&healthy. The third one cannot be disclosed. and the second wish, I already told that special person about my wishes and she agrees.(:

2011-11-21T19:15:00.004+08:00

This is what happen when you play the game too slow sometimes, another player wanna to join in the game

one more day to Mr Jonathan Low 19th birthday. Guess it will be another typical tuesday. damn! They shld declare a holiday on 22 november every year so that people can rest. HAHA. :P

Had a guys talk today, damn! really, when guys talk... tsk! it all laughters and stuffs. HAHA.
Men talk! Can't believe I'm the older inside but I can still click with guys younger than me. Like a big brother. HAHAHA.. eat salt more than eat rice ah ah boy. HAHA.
Play the game fast, don't give wrong signal to other people, go for the one you wanted, don't play around, it breaks one feeling and heart. Be loyal, is important okay.(: all the best!

lovemynewwhiteCrocsslippeerbutIcannotbeartowearit!

2011-11-20T18:31:00.001+08:00

" Do 100 things that friends asks you to do, but please don't do at-least that one thing that your love don't want you to do ♥ "

2 more days and 19th officially. Sweet 19 ?

2011-11-18T19:23:00.003+08:00

Maybe is I

There is a saying :
"Man cannot wait, but often said, "wait for you forever", A woman cannot afford to, but wait a lifetime. "

Like, is not born from experience, it is like surfing, as in the starting time, has almost arrived,
I love because a person's personality can also be because he's full of holes, which are is not important, but also irrelevant, as long as I love, would be sufficient.

quoted

week is coming to a end and it's the weekends. every week, I'm passing time like this, soon.. HAHA..
ended two practical programming tests and next week another practical and theory test. DIE!
And my body is super itchy! must be the bed! bed bugs!?!?!

Every time I look in the mirror,All these lines on my face getting clearer, The past is gone, It goes by, like dusk to dawn, Isn't that the way, Everybody's got their dues in life to pay,Yeah, I know, nobody knows , where it comes and where it goes,I know it's everybody's sin,You got to lose to know how to win.

2011-11-17T20:09:00.002+08:00

Why people with knowledge die faster thn those people without knowledge ?
now those people without knowledge are suffering.

sometimes I just don't like what I'm doing. It is so unproductive. I'm going school for the purpose of making the attendance, to make the class look crowded ? HAHA..
I'm doing something that I'm not working towards in my future.. Please, IT industry? Yes, market and MONEY is there, but I'm ain't happy. So what if I earn 10k a month ? Ask myself Am I Happy ? No, money can buy the world but cannot buy the happiness one WANTS.

im surprised that my mum actually ask you to join for dinner(L)

2011-11-15T21:34:00.002+08:00

Last night was the longest night

Last night seem to be the longest night ever.. couldn't get into a comfortable sleeping position and my mind was running with her.
Walking alone in the park doesn't do the job, the best is still to have a heart to heart talk with each other which we did, at 12.30am. HAHA.
really sorry for making you feel hurt. but really, let's not hang each other alright(:
we have a bright future ahead.

2011-11-15T21:23:00.004+08:00

Switzerland
The destination to be.

Starting to fall in love with Switzerland and this is so gonna be my destination. (:
save up now and soon, I'm going Switzerland!
Any sponsorship ? I'll bring piece of the Matterhorn or snow . HEHE.

2011-11-14T10:41:00.001+08:00

Till the End

Girl you told me,
That you don´t think that i´m the one for you
And you showed me,
It doesn´t really matter what i do
But each and every step i take leads me back to you
And i fear when i´m awake my dreams will not come true

I don´t know what else to do when i´m close to you than to hold my breathe and cross my fingers
No matter what you´re saying
I´d still be praying and keep on coming back for more
Cause all i do is dream about you
And all i do is thinking of you all the time
Wishing you where mine

Girl i told you,
I´ll give the world to be the one you need
And let me show you,
There´ll never be another one for me
Now i´m picking myself apart i wanna be all i can be
Cause in the puzzle of my heart you´re the missing piece

I don´t know what else to do when i´m close to you than to hold my breathe and cross my fingers
No matter what you´re saying
I´d still be prauing and keep on coming back for more
Cause all i do is dream about you
And all i do is thinking of you all the time
Wishing you where mine till the end of time

I don´t know what else to do when i´m close to you than to hold my breathe and cross my fingers
No matter what you´re saying
I´d still be praying and keep on coming back for more
Cause all i do is dream about you
And all i do is thinking of you all the time
Wishing you where mine

2011-11-13T09:35:00.001+08:00

Got the surprised but it wasn't good enough

maybe you're not ready,
maybe you don't want such commitment yet,
I'll respect your decision.

but no matter what, I'll still hold on.

so where do i stand now ?

2011-11-12T22:53:00.001+08:00

Close

You give me strength
You give me hope
You give me someone to love someone to hold
When I'm in your arms
I need you to know
I've never been
I've never been this close

With all the lovers
I used to know
I kept my distance I never let go
But in your arms I know I'm safe
'Cause I've never been held
And I've never been kissed in this way
You're all I'll ever need
You're all I'll ever need

2011-11-11T19:06:00.003+08:00

I'm all about you

There's somethin' that
I've got to say
You're always with me
Even though, you're far away
Talkin to you on my cell
Just the sound of your voice
Makes my heart melt
Oh girl, well it's true

I'm all about you
I'm all about us
No, baby, you never have
To question my love

And every night
There's a new crowd
But it's always you
That I'm singing about
There is only one these words
Are going out to
Oh girl, I'm all about you

I know you worry sometimes,
Some other girl will make me forget you're mine
There's not a doubt in this world
That anyone could take the
Place of my number one girl

It's true
I'm all about you
I'm all about us
No, baby, you never have
To question my love

And every night
There's a new crowd
But it's always you
That I'm singing about
There is only one these words
Are going out to

Oh girl, I'm all about you
When i close my eyes i can see you
It's like your right here
And this feeling's only gettin' stronger
You're with me everywhere

I'm all about you
I'm all about us
No, baby, you never have
To question my love

And every night
There's a new crowd
But it's always you
That I'm singing about
There is only one these words
Are goin' out to

Oh girl, I'm all about you
I'm all about you
I'm all about you
I'm all about you
I'm all about you....

iloveyou

2011-11-11T00:29:00.002+08:00

I'm a waiter.

The shoe I'm wearing is way too big to fit anyone.

2011-11-09T17:14:00.005+08:00

Why ?

Today I come home so happily just to watch the catch up tv at xinmsn.com of last night show 9pm drama, was about to type out the conversation between the a couple then was ~~scrolling down the fb and went to see something and suddenly, the happiness is not there anymore.~~ What is the satisfaction of hacking ? human are human. They don't know the consequences until someTHING happen.

A girl received flower from someone and she assume it was from her boyfriend so to cfm, she called him to reconfirm but the boyfriend deny. so she thought it was one of her suitor so she was to ask him but she was taken aback when it also not that guy...
so when the couple met that night, this was their conversation...

Guy : So who gave the flowers?
Girl : I've no idea...
Guy look suspicious at her...
Girl : Are you feeling jealous?
Guy : Would I be jealous? You have so many suitors. It shows I have good taste.
Guy : Wrong, It shows you have market value
Girl : Market value, huh?
Girl : What do you take me for- a medicinal herb in the shop?
Guy : Of course not. You are....
Guy lean over and give her a kiss before saying
Guy : Honey
Girl laughed cheekily and give the guy that loving look
Guy : Now, come clean with me. How many bees and butterflies have been drawn to you? I plan to make specimens of them!
Girl : Are you worried now? Don't blink.
Girl walked and turn 3 - 4 rounds (meaning she has 4 suitor)
Guy : No way... That many of them?
Girl continue to spin....
Guy went over to stop her and hug her
Guy : Stop spinning. You're making me dizzy!
Guy : Were you pulling my leg?
Girl keep laughing...
Girl : What about you? How many have you got?
Guy : Watch closely
Guy turn one round and then indicate his finger 1
Girl : (looked amazed) Just one girl?
Guy : (smiling) One in each country!
Girl hit the guy
Guy : (blocking) Just kidding! I come from a strict household. Are you going to doubt my market value ?

Damn funny this part, the actions and tones used by the couple. Sweet!

2011-11-09T17:09:00.001+08:00

是男人看到都会感到那个痛

2011-11-08T22:03:00.002+08:00

To miss is nothing, To be missed is something, To miss and be missed is everything

Okay, what's up with this few days ? Been doing nothing much though, school is abit wasting time and unproductive, not much can be done, but have to start with the project now, the phases are kicking off and week 07 is the mid presentation and individual assessment!

Tmr is Wednesday and is the number 21st day.
Since tmr end school early, shall spare NYP my time to do Friday and Monday submission cause will have a busy weekends.

Saturday going out with shagua, going to catch the movie called Apple of my eye. I know I'm her apple of her eye la. (bet she will smile when she see this) HAHA..
She say she will give me something... ^^

Alright, see when you have gulit, you will be to afraid to see me right ? I'm that deadly right ?
Let's make things easy, I already give you chance, don't blow the matter out, I give you two path, you get the guy out or you plan a way to return that amount of money. Don't run away cause you can't hide.

Love is missing someone whenever you’re apart, but somehow feeling warm inside because you’re close in heart

2011-11-07T21:17:00.000+08:00

你放着谁的歌曲
是怎样的心情
能不能说给我听

2011-11-07T15:35:00.003+08:00

why everytime when everything is going so well and fine and something just have to spolit it ?
Like totally fucked up. shit happens but it doesn't happen to me in this way man. why.

this world is full of shit people, can I eliminate one by one or give them a lesson each ? can I ?

2011-11-07T14:06:00.002+08:00

I'll Be

I'll be your crying shoulder
I'll be love suicide
I'll be better when I'm older
I'll be the greatest man of your life.

HAHAHA..

babyking

2011-11-06T13:54:00.002+08:00

Lose on the table, win on the grass.

Damn! lose $34 during mahjong session in the evening, Jerry biggest winner.
But luckily, the grass pitch was great and got me back $300. SHIOK!
Time to save up $ and not spend like turning tap, time to get back all the money who people owe me, no more buying people dinner freely. HAHA. Time to get back my money!
Okay, tmr is public holiday, time to relax at home like a king.

So I need to do some reporting now, someone by the name of Phua Mei Xuan book me for the 9pm time slot and it past 9pm already, later lodge complaint for being late! :P
She enjoy talking to me la.. what to do.. HAHAHA..

Okie Dokie, stupig monkey!

2011-11-05T13:24:00.001+08:00

Birthday BBQ

Godma and Godsister.

went to a birthday bbq at the weekend. Godma brother son 4th birthday. This uncle know me since when I was like a baby and when I arrived there, everyone were like wah... grow big liao ah, yan dao la! HAHAHA..

A son wants to have a child and the father want to have a grandchild.

2011-11-05T10:05:00.006+08:00

To be number 01 is easy but to stand as number 01, that is the difficult part

Take my hand
I'll teach you to dance
I'll spin you around
Won't let you fall down

Would you let me lead
You can step on my feet
Give it a try
It'll be all right

The rooms hush, hush
And now's our moment
Take it in, feel it all, and hold it
Eyes on you, eyes on me
We're doing this right

Cause lovers dance when they're feeling in love
Spotlight shining, its all about us
its all about us
And every heart in the room will melt
This is a feeling I've never felt
but its all about us

Suddenly, I'm feeling brave
Don't know whats gotten into me
Why I feel this way
Can we dance, real slow
Can I hold you, Can I hold you close

The rooms hush, hush
And now's our moment
Take it in, feel it all, and hold it
Eyes on you, eyes on me
We're doing this right

Cause lovers dance when they're feeling in love
Spotlight shining, its all about us
its all about us
And every heart in the room will melt
This is a feeling I've never felt
but its all about us

Do you hear that love,
they're playing our song
Do you think we're ready,
oh I'm really feeling it
Do you hear that love,
Do you hear that love(repeat 3 times)

lovers dance when they're feeling in love
Spotlight shining, its all about us
its all
And every heart in the room will melt
This is a feeling I've never felt
but its all about us

Cause lovers dance when they're feeling in love
Spotlight shining, its all about us
its all about us
And every heart in the room will melt
This is a feeling I've never felt
but its all, all about us.

why like that Jon. Why?
Maybe it was all from young, from the place and environment I grow up from, from the people around me, it all about life experience.
At least she care, she wanted to call me to ask me what's going on. maybe is just mind over matter.

Are we ready

2011-11-04T18:28:00.002+08:00

Shagua

别走开给我一个时间对你说爱
手触着心缓缓呼吸
深深地感觉心在说我爱你
哦宝贝给我一个时间对你说爱
用我的心化做星星
填满你寂寞的夜里
从来不曾有过这样的感觉
迫切渴望拥有每一个永远
就让转动的世界停留在眼前
让我对你说对你说
我是真的付出我的爱
从今以后不会再更改
哦让我拥有你到未来
我是真的付出我的爱
从今以后就不会再更改
让我拥有你全部的爱

idiot, dare me to call your house uhs! :P but you be waiting for my call right ? HAHA..
small argument is common but after that, we will be stronger and the relationship wld also be stronger right ? I also always have some argument with parents what, but at the end of the day, we still know they are still concern about us and all right ? So don't stone ah, whenever you stone again, I'll call you and give you a curfew to go home otherwise I'll call your home! (L)
And my mum saw our Snow City photo by accident, no wonder she kept asking about you. HAHA..

I give my hand to you with all my heart
Can't wait to live my life with you, can't wait to start